Hey everyone yea so I'm back for awhile. Sorry this poem is kinda long. Please let me know what you think and please possibly help me with a title. Thanks.
Where is the life that once shone through your eyes?
Why have you got this barrier? Why this disguise?
Why do you look so sad inside?
Why do you lock yourself away? Why do you hide?
Why has your smile been replaced with a frown?
Why do you look so tired? Why are you so down?
Why are you not talking? What is wrong?
You are scaring me, where have you gone?
Why have you got scars on your arm?
Why are you causing your body harm?
Why are you angry? Why are you sad?
Why do you see yourself as so bad?
Why arenít you crying? Where are your tears?
You can talk to me, what are your fears?
Why canít you open up, tell me about your sadness.
Maybe I can help you, for in you I see no badness.
Why do I feel that you are losing hope?
When I know you are strong, you really can cope.
Please trust me, I am here for you.
I will help you, I will do anything I can do.
The light in my eyes died long ago,
That is why this disguise I have to show.
For I am too sad to let anyone see,
What I have deep inside of me.
This is why I lock myself away,
For there is nothing I have to say.
No words inside that can be spoken,
I am just empty, I am too broken.
My smile died along with my soul.
I have lost my fight, I have lost all control.
For I cannot see anyway to escape,
From my memories of abuse, my memories of rape.
No matter what I do, he will not go away,
And it has worn me down, I no longer want to stay.
I want this to be over, I want to break free,
For no one will ever understand what happened to me.
I am still only a child, too small to take this pain,
And I am terrified and helpless, I am riddled with shame.
He hurts me so deeply as I scream within,
Shouting for someone to help me as he commits his sin.
But no one comes, I am always alone,
With no care or support ever shown,
He grabs my shell and forces it against my wall,
He is so big and I am so small,
I am suffocating now, I cannot breath,
As he splits me in two and begins to heave.
Heave his body hard against mine,
Sweating and groaning as he's committing his crime,
As I stand breathless and screaming deep within,
Begging and praying for God to stop him.
I donít mean to scare you, I have just lost all hope.
You think I am strong, but I cannot cope.
For each and everyday that my eyes awake,
All I see are the memories I am trying to escape.
I have these scars upon my arm,
For my body had to pay, I had to cause it harm.
For it let him touch it in ways so wrong.
And it let him carry on and on.
Now he's still here I am stained.
And I live my life so scared and ashamed.