NJ; United States
I lost two family members, so I can see where your coming from! I'm pretty sure she was a good person... so I believe that she's smiling down from heaven right now. I'm not saying that you'll never get over her, because you two were like family (maybe more) but what I'm saying is that she'd want you to be happy, because she loved you, whether as a friend or a gf... I know that she'll always have a place in your heart, but be happy...I think it's what she would've wanted..
But enough about that... I absolutely loved ur poem. You could really identify the pain you went through and are still going through, and you could see that it had depth. I loved how you didn't try to make everything rhyme, you just spoke what was in your heart- absolutley wonderful and heartfelt!!
Kai (a.k.a. precious pearls)