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voice2bheard Senior Member
since 2007-10-19
Posts 591New York |
You're on my mind all the time, why you ask? That's a good question I wish I had the answer to myself To others, you would never seem like someone I would ever be attracted to in my life Yet for some reasons in my eyes, I see you as nothing but beautiful and amazing and I can never get over it, oh how I wish I could, if you only knew what I go through It seems that no matter how many times I desperately try to forget you, I truly can't I've tried to dislike you, but damn it you always make me laugh I've tried ignoring you, damn you again as I can never get your voice out of my head anyways no matter how hard I try, I can't get enough of how it sounds I've even tried the worse just to hate you and forget you Guess that is impossible when I don't hate you, I never have and I never will Its impossible to forget you when you're constantly on my mind I could never hate you, because I feel the exact opposite when it comes to you Whenever you're around, I get lost in so many ways I get lost in what to say, I get lost in what to do, I believe that I even forget to breathe at times when I'm around you I'm sorry for what I did to you, as I'm sorry for what I did to myself I know that its going to take some time, as I'm doing this on my own, with no help When trying to move on, its not as easy as others have once made it look As if a new name or face, could be all that it took Its impossible to give someone your heart when it already belongs to one I wish you could understand, that's its truly nothing that you've done Trust me when I say, this isn't easy for me at all As you have become my biggest obstacle, as you will be my one and only downfall You hold my heart in your hands, yet you don't even know it As delicate as I may be, its only shown within you No one else knows things about me like you do No one else knows what to do, or say around me, but you You don't understand the amount of power you have over me do you? How I can just look at you and you make me smile How you can just hold me in your arms and that's the safest place for me in the world There has been more than one occasion where you have made me feel like a woman, and not just a girl I know there have been times where I let the worse get to me And for that I have pushed you away on more than one occasion, and for that you are owed the truth Angel, I love you more than words could ever describe You are my perfection of what I want by my side in my life Angel, you make me everything I am today, and everything I inspire to be I will try my best to explain as you have done this to me You say you haven't done anything to make me feel the way that I do Did it ever occur to you that I control how I feel, and I most certainly can't control, let alone stop, how I truly feel for you I can give other people bullsh*t, I could tell them so many lies Yet even through everything you always know if I have something to hide You know me better than a lot of people I've met in my life So why can't all of this just go away already? When this isn't right I have succumb to the realization that you will never go away So I'm done running and hiding as I feel I would rather be truthful with what I want to say as well as how I feel You, my Angel, I love you with every ounce of love fathomed possible Even to this day however, you continue to deny, or disbelief of my true feelings for you Yet over and over again, I still feel this way about you, as well as a little bit stronger everyday I know that you are my forbidden fruit fallen far from the tree Yet it seems that I've been hooked since the first taste, you're everything that I want in me The touch I can't describe as the thoughts run wild into temptation that cannot be resisted The sounds that escape your mouth that I always seem to want upon mine Yet every time I try to resist or walk away, its just makes me want you even more every time I want your hands to be held within mine, but I also want them in places that aren't appropriate in this line I don't like people paying attention to me, it makes me nervous as if I'm on stage However with your beautiful brown eyes, if it was possible I'd want them on me all the time No I don't want to be the center of anyone's attention, just yours my Angel I want to hear your laughs and voice no matter what it is you have to say When I'm around you, no matter what, you always seem to be the one that makes things okay At times I can't breathe around you, but somehow you seem to be the only one that makes me come alive How is that possible when still none of this is right I repeat to myself as you are " Forbidden Fruit" my Angel So why is it at times, that not even you can resist the urges or temptations you have towards me? Why do we seem to do this to each other over and over? That maybe somewhere deep down, we both know that we do want each other in our lives, that we do care about each other no matter how many times we try to deny that we don't When there have been countless times where I have let you go, but still you come back What is this telling me that it is that we have As I have backed off and pulled away, that just makes me want you that much more You, my Angel, what I want most in my life, as I love and adore The slightest indication of hatred is the farthest from the truth As I guess I don't want anyone else but you, knowing what I truly feel for you Its like being on a cloud, or taken far away To the most beautiful and peaceful place on earth, whenever you stay You make things safe, and you make things right No matter what happens, I will never let you down without a fight I will always be here for you, no matter what happens between us As I will do everything that I can, to eventually one day rebuild that trust I know things for you are so hard to believe Yet I have accepted my fate that this will never be However I see that we are only given one life and to make the best with what we have So for once in my life, I believed in something so much, that you are worth fighting for, the good and the bad I will never leave you, as I will always be here To be your friend to talk to, and an admirer that will dry your tears A hand to hold if something ever goes wrong I will give you all of my strength if it makes you feel strong I wish I could say that I felt like this before However this has been a first for me, going beyond this door No I can't say that I enjoy it much, but I do enjoy you If only you could see through my eyes, everything that you've done, and what you still do I'm hoping that over time maybe this will fade away But maybe for now just this once it'll be safe for me to say You want the truth? For me to not tell you any lies As I have done this before, but with you, even though its not right As far as right now, I don't think that I can ever give you up, as I have already given into you so much, for you I still want to fight As I will try my best to move on and find someone new You will be the only one whos knows, as a part of me will always feel this way for you How much time does one truly need for " I love you" to be either to much, or never enough? As I know it will take a long time for any of this to fade Angel as I ask of you, just to be there for me, just please give me time As I know that it will be a while, as something like this doesn't just go away Within the truth in my head, is that I really want you to stay I'll always want you here, I'll never want you to go I wish I could just tell you the words that you need to know I wish that I could be strong and just let out my true feelings that I'd want to show No this is not goodbye, as those words will never leave my mouth to you I just thought it best for you to know the truth Now whether you decide to believe it for a change of course is up to you I understand how I've treated you in the past, not everything has been shown out of love, and for that I only want to make things better I let my fear get the best of me, I don't want to do that anymore I shut you out and pushed you away, the worse of things I can say I don't want to do that anymore, I want to let you in and hold you close and never let go If I'm being honest that's what you need to know I want the best of me to come out around you, as well as all the time What I want most, is the only person that I want to be mine I will never forget you Angel, as a part of me will always love you no matter what I will always love you Angel, as I will always want your touch, your kiss, your scent, your voice Just everything about you, that makes you, you You are my perfection, my desire, that has shown me what I want in my life, and it is you, Angel To not be beautiful to yourself, but beautiful in another's eyes, has nothing to do with how your perceived physically But how one sees you for who you are on the inside, and they accept and are willing to be there for you no matter what To see you for who you really are, which is my Angel, my Love, the one that will have always gotten away, forbidden fruit, and just one more reason to do a little better You may not be perfect, but you're everything I've ever wanted, and you're perfect for me Until everything has come to an end, I will always love you Angel, and I'm not going to hide from it anymore Loving you feels amazing, exhilarating, a rush, an intense high, every good feeling possible That's what you to do me, my Angel I don't regret telling you, because you are one of the best things that's come into my life However I will always be waiting for the day, my Angel, when you will make things right Kate |
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Bluesy Socrateaser Member Elite
since 2002-11-07
Posts 2417In The Mirror |
More reasonable than dark...actually. ...just bein' Bluesy |
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