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voice2bheard
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0 posted 2018-03-07 04:07 AM


If only you knew what it was like everyday
Every time when I see you, it still never goes away
I've wondered if I'd be better off without you, but I already know that's not true
Get over it, just forget it, everyday I have to tell myself
One day soon maybe there will be someone else
Is that really what I want to do
Move on and forget this, just forget about you
Sure it'd make the pain, agony, and excruciation fade
Still I don't think that it will completely ever go away
Whenever I'm around you, its always so much that I can never explain
The things that you do to me, how you just make all the pain go away
Why can't I just let you go, hell why did I ever have to let you know?
Why did I ever have to open my mouth?
Why did I even have to know just a smidge of what you're about?
Now its starting to seem like it'll never be enough
Hurting inside, realizing after months that there will never be an us
I count down the seconds until I can be away from you
No really inside I count the seconds until I can be with you
I know you never meant it, but somehow everything is this way
Now I'm not even sure what to do anymore, not even sure what to say
I haven't felt like this for someone in over a decade
Sometimes I wish you didn't know the real me, that it still should've been a masquerade
It always feels like there's still so much to say to you
Yet when I'm finally around you the words can never come out
Still even after months, I have no idea what you're all about
I love who I see, and I love what I know
I love you enough in this life, to know that I don't want you to go
I wish just for once you understood where I'm coming from
Just once I could follow through on the word "done"
To feel what its like to love someone who doesn't even acknowledge you
How much that it hurts, when they even know the truth
How is it possible to have such love for someone who doesn't feel the same
Trust me,. you wouldn't want to be in this position, it isn't the best of games
Holding in a breath, but to never let it go
I'm so sick of these stupid emotions, that just seem to grow
Just stop already, can't it just go away
As I feel I've said to much now, with what I have to say
Tears, Blood, Dirt...I don't think it really matters
When it comes down to a heart that's been completely shattered
I never want to hurt you, and its to late if I already did
Why'd you have to do this to me, do you like seeing me like this
Everything about this is just so wrong and forbidden
So why can't I just forget you, cause you'll be someone severely missed
For once I actually have someone who matters
Not sure what that's like, even if hurts, I still want to hold on tight
When the only place that I feel safe is in your arms
I'm scared there will come a day, you won't be there anymore, just gone
So I need to tell you the truth, before either of us go
No matter how much it may seem like I hate you, I still always love you so
I will always be there for you until the very end
Even if it means a broken heart, and losing a best friend
Back to being quiet, you not knowing at all
As you won't ever know this, or the tears that fall
You don't believe that I care, you don't believe that I love you
Eventually one day I'll have to say goodbye, and move too
As much as I want you to stay in my life
When you don't feel the same, it'll never feel right

Kate

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Bluesy Socrateaser
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1 posted 2018-03-07 12:11 PM


quote:
"Everything about this is just so wrong and forbidden"
I feel it's never wrong to love someone. If it's "forbidden", maybe that's because one's attentions are focused on someone who's married, but other than that...

Your willingness to not play the 'masquerade' game leaves you more vulnerable. I've found that the most loving people are those who are willing to be 'vulnerable'. As I read your heartfelt poetry, I got the impression that this is you all over.

You're right. It hurts...it hurts bad to love someone who won't love you back. It's easy to say, "find someone who will". Yep, that's easy to say alright...but hard as hell to do.

I wish you love.   

...just bein' Bluesy

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