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a simple dream of mine
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a simple dream of mine |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738
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I dreamed my son died, as all the sky with every hue of sunbreak's fry was swallowed by my mouth in "Noooooo..." then all the rain fell down my throat, and if I had not choked on that I think that I might have died too. I'd like to say I had a day of rainbows and a sepia- filtered-homey-homily, but the truth is that I dreamed; and I woke up grateful, true, so very happy he was home and then I blanked ingratitude. I wish that I could boast about a perfect day I spent with him. But the truth is I forgot how deep the pain would be the loss of his happy lopsided grin annoying me so teasingly-- how impatiently I wait before the bathroom door at eight each morn with my legs in martyred cross, banging on the door near-spent making noises animal and thinking thoughts I can't repent. I dreamed my son died this morning. I'm happy I imagined it. I wonder how my mother spends each morning, waking, just like this... A mother does habitual count of heads, to add the beans. I do not know how to subtract I can't imagine the abstract of once there was the triplets at the table, elbowing the laughs as the men preferred to stand (By Daddy's eyebrowed reprimand) watching over all... I'd druther not have dreams at all. And other times, they are my grace. The ones when everyone is there... forgive me, I just might sleep late second helpings on my plate banana pudding and the scrape of spoon upon vanilla waves-- let me wake and find them there? A simple dream of mine. |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
 hoping you have more pleasant dreams coming true in realtime replacing those others.M |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Being a mother myself I felt this write. Dreams can be interpreted in so many different ways so perhaps just think that he's on to a new start as something more than he is at the moment. I think I read somewhere that he was going away to college? That's it you see. However, it still wasn't a nice dream to have. I wish you more pleasant ones in future. Love Helen |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
*smile* My anxiety is out of control. I had a certified doctor tell me that. I replied that if I could control it, it wouldn't be anxiety, now would it? Me and doctors...I oughtta write a book.  Thanks for reading. I still haven't gone back to sleep. I'm afraid of the "feature presentation"   |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
OhMyDearLady~ 'I'd druther not have dreams at all. And other times, they are my grace. The ones when everyone is there... forgive me, I just might sleep late' You're forgiven ... sleep late~  Love n' *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~ |
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Dark Stranger Member Patricius
since 2001-03-19
Posts 13631West Coast |
Ms serene. We all feel these things about our kids, wishing sometimes we could do it all over again and protect them with armor, but then again they are stronger with the scars. Enjoyed u here |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
"I'd druther not have dreams at all. And other times, they are my grace. The ones when everyone is there... forgive me, I just might sleep late second helpings on my plate banana pudding and the scrape of spoon upon vanilla waves-- let me wake and find them there? A simple dream of mine" relating to this a lot.  |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
aw, sue-see, nodding. I owe you an "e". tsk..don't let my demons summon up yours, now, k? and D? you are a tender heart, you are, but I won't tell nobody.  Margie...whew...this is one tough summer, ain't it? Ya'll don't mind me. I'm just passin' the time here...but hey? I LIKE the dreams where everybody is there. I just don't like the ones where I'm here and somebody's missing.  Maybe if I just stay up they won't have so much trouble knocking me out...? lawsy...laughing I'm a little weird when I'm wired. just a little Mo, I owe ya an e, too. ... and Helen, I don't tell you often enough what a fine writer you are either. Love you guys. |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
you know I read in a book that if you dream someone dies, it means the opposite. I think I will go with that   |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Actually, I've dream of my own death--several times!  In one memorable dream, I tripped over my own head. But that's another poem...  |
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Artic Wind Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 8080Realm of Supernatural |
Dear Serenity!, Yes dreams are very interesting. I have had my fair of dreams. Even when I almost die myself lol *I know, crazy huh** Sometimes they feel so real that I don't want to have a dream ever again. Things I don't want to dream about. Some of my poems are my dreams I have. Then I write them down because I don't want to forget them. Excellent Write Dearest Karen! To youARCTIC WIND |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
My uterus is the size of an eggplant. That has nothing to do with anything, but I thought, what the heck? You don't seem to scare easy, so I just figgered I'd toss a fun fact out here. Dreams...man, I write about them alot. I read somewhere that Dali slept with a sketchpad so he could capture as much of them as he could...all the surrealism, yanno. I talk a lot when I'm nervous. I mean. I talk a lot anyway, but when I'm nervous, it's just ridiculous. I talk to my family as they shut their bedroom doors (hint hint) then I talk through the doors, and I always seem to be talking to the back of my sister's head. And then when I'm DRUGS? OHHHHHHHH BOY! I give entire lectures in my sleep, or so I'm told. The history and evolution of sacrificial rituals was one of my more interesting drug babbles. That and lima beans. Nod. They'll probably shove a tube down my throat just to shut me up. I hope I don't say anything stupid. h-heh? Thanks for reading, AW. Sometimes I SING in my sleep! Ask Nan. I woke up one morning singing "goody goody" by Frankie Lymon. I've never been able to share a bedroom with anybody. I'm gonna shaddup now. TMI? Eggplant! Sheesh. Enough already. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzip!!!---> |
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Artic Wind Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 8080Realm of Supernatural |
lol? Eggplant oh my! lol  Yes Dreams Are sometimes a little Weird.. Just a little lol hehehe ARCTIC WIND |
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XOx Uriah xOX Senior Member
since 2006-02-11
Posts 1403Virginia |
Dreams can be rough. Even knowing it is a dream...the images stir real emotions. That was a hard one. I am still a bit p.o.'d at certain people...over certain things that I caught them doing...in certain dreams from long ago. ::shrugs:: (((Serenity))) I love the flavor of eggplant. It is the oyster of the vegetable family. ::smiles:: and you are such a pearl. |
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The Shadow in Blue Member
since 2006-05-18
Posts 493EL, Michigan |
Karen, I must say your ramblings are always so amusing and enlightening.  You jumped from your egg plant uterus to the history of sacrificial ritual in two paragraphs. I bow down to your rambling prowess. Anyway, I wish you more peaceful sleep and hope your anxiety went down, at least to a non-thesis/book level. On a final note, I beat you with the nervous thing. I ramble and talk like speedy gonzales.  Hugs Jill |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Jill? I think I'm gonna quaff down that Valerian and try for a nap. (No zanax for moi the next few days...and I'm playin' by the rules this time.) That tube down the throat bit is decidedly not funny.  So...I'm gonna be over there---> hold down the fort me, k? love you! Thanks for checking in. |
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The Shadow in Blue Member
since 2006-05-18
Posts 493EL, Michigan |
Ay Ay Captain! |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
So when you get up and find me nodding agreement in the anxiety of dreams, you'll also imagine me holding you... |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
forgive me while I chuckle at the image of you tripping over your own head...  I've had those dreams too... where I died... can't say I recall ever tripping over my head... they were some pretty disturbing dreams, though... but Karen?... what Marge said... sleep well... and SLEEP LATE... *smile* dream sweet, my sis... ya know I love ya... "When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace." --Jimi Hendrix |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Now that was some reading through your poem, the replies and your additions, dear Karen! I was going to say what Suesea said: when you dream of someone dying you actually add years to that life ... here in Italy they are positive about this. I know it is not fun though to have such a dream. Gosh, you made me laugh though with your "crossed leg" position in the morning. Guys take forever to come out of the bathroom, that's for sure! Eggplants are my favorite vegetable, they are simply awesome in shape and in color and substance. They are different size of course, so I want to believe that your uterus has the right size, whatever. In the end, it is something we can do without, but we don't like the idea, especially if we are deeply conscious of our being females. What I really dread is the idea of the tube down the throat! They should do that only when we are already asleep/unconscious ... I wonder do we have dreams when sleep is forced on us? Can't remember, though I have been a few times in that situation. Anyway, dream on, it's all an elaboration of our thoughts while awake and also of the visual impressions we store ... and of our fears and we know a mother's fear is sometimes incontrollable for her offspring when she worries. As soon as such a sad thought hits my mind I "neutralize" it by saying a prayer of gratitude to the Angels of my son and daughter for their wonderful protection ... Be well, dear Karen, Poetess! Love and hugs. Margherita |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
quote: Now you're reminding me of my mother. She was in one deep sleep one afternoon, and Dad told me to go in and wake her up. [She didn't want to sleep past a certain hour...and she loved her naps!] Well, this was a good one. Mom, you need to wake up now." "I've got to get the potatoes" What potatoes? "The potatoes, I've got to get them, everyone will be here soon." So I left her for a moment, went and got Dad, and he came in with me to try to wake her up. Honey, time to get up. "Here, help me with the potatoes. Start digging." And it went on, and on. Pretty soon the entire family was in Mom and Dad's room, listening to this conversation about digging up potatoes. Dad kept feeding her questions, and she was going on and on just as if she were awake [and she wasn't! because she wouldn't have been able to keep a straight face as all of us kids were giggling behind our hands.!] Oh, the fun we could have on an overnighter with you! |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
"Oh, the fun we could have on an overnighter with you!"  oh but you have no idea...  |
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JenniferMaxwell
since 2006-09-14
Posts 2423 |
Haven't had much reading time lately, Karen, but I'm so glad I had time to read this. Outstanding write, Bravo! |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Well, I've been reading you, sweet genius.  and don't think I didn't catch that "Blessed Be" in another thread, either. Comin' out of the broom closet, are we? Lawsy I love you good people. I'm on a 24 hour countdown, and don't think I won't be missing you guys. sigh...ya'll keep me sane yanno. *giggle* |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Karen....you touch places that I wish that I could, with your heart. |
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Temptress
Moderator
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
Those kind of dreams always leave me feeling moody all day... You spin the story of a dream quite well, Ser. "...buried way beneath the sheets |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
(((((((Ser)))))))) More than anything about this that strikes me to the core is the courage it takes to write it. On every level! Putting yourself in your mother's shoes, your own feelings and anxieties. The love in your heart is so full it makes mine nearly burst! Miss ya lady and my prayers are with you. |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
the first line raptly got my attention and it was a fast-paced read to the end, the description of the relationship and the earnest hopes warming me |
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