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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL 
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It is almost evil the way the sickness rises clouds my day while I wrestle desperately to hold back a wall of self and other destruction. I am up raised above clouds and unhindered by obstacles happy big smile from almost nowhere and goal bound. Unheeded momentarily hours or mere minutes by the down threatening grinning slightly from just around the corner of my soul. And then it slams into me from somewhere I can barely see and I plunge from total self assurance into something else. Faltering breathing in things I could do to destroy the very good nature of myself and I continue to sink until moments hours or minutes go by and suddenly I am rising again goal bound and smiling. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ An explanation of this is that in November I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder,and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Doc says that writing is good for this. Maybe that is what has gotten me through all these years that I didn't know. I want to start a good project out of this. Oh well....I have to laugh at the OCD though...that one was always extrememly recognizable to me.  Love and stuff... "...buried way beneath the sheets |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Love and stuff indeed. Honey, check your email.  It's so good to see you again! |
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Robert E. Jordan Member Rara Avis
since 2008-01-25
Posts 8541Philadelphia, Pennsylvania |
Dear Temptress, This works well as a poem. I hope you stay well. Bobby |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
"And then it slams into me from somewhere I can barely see and I plunge from total self assurance into something else."  |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
"And then it slams into me from somewhere I can barely see and I plunge from total self assurance into something else." I reckon you pretty much sum up every human being with the above words because we all at some time or other suffer "the plunge" although it may be caused by different things and end up in a different place. Enjoyed your poem! Helen |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
I thought that you might be interest in something I once read! ~ People who are bi-polar often have a higher intellect than the rest of we monochromatic, monotone mortals.  EA |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Jen! It is sooooo good to read you! You've described the high and lows of this with impecable clarity. Really well done! I have a close relative who was diagnosed with this as well, and you've captured it beautifully. I'm a true believer in writing it out ... you go girl!  Great to see you and read you ... very much enjoyed Jen! Best wishes and big hugs, /Kit |
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Nan
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
Hey, Jenn.. Nice to see you! I have great confidence that you'll keep this whole thing under control.. After all, You're the Dreamer!  |
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Temptress
Moderator
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
I really appreciate all of your support on my writing for this. Thanks so much everyone. I was a little nervous about admitting this here, but I feel a little better now. "...buried way beneath the sheets |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
for now I will just send you some hugs~~ until I have more time to respond. It's so good to read you again and to know you are doing "ok". M |
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