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x-tears-x
Junior Member

since 2008-04-13

Posts 43
England

0 posted 2008-04-13 05:16 PM

I have a problem,
I don’t know what to write,
I want to write how I really feel,
But I’m really not sure tonight,

I’m not feeling very angry,
I’m not feeling at all alone,
I actually feel quite happy,
But I also feel rotten to the bone,

I really feel like crying,
I want to let my emotions out,
Why can’t the tears just come?
I can’t even scream or shout,

There are no words to describe this,
I’m not confused, angry or scared,
I feel like cutting myself,
Because even though I told my dad – no one cared,

But somehow I feel calm,
I don’t get it or like it at all,
What can’t I have one emotion?
Or maybe just feel normal?

Earlier I was knackered,
I actually went to sleep,
Now it’s nearly midnight,
And I want to jump or leap,

I want to run now,
Right out of the front door,
Go on a long run,
I want to scream and roar,

So tomorrow that’s what I’ll do,
Oh no, bugger I can’t,
I’ve got this stupid friend coming round,
Who thinks she’s my agony aunt,

Why can’t I run away?
I know it’s a stupid idea,
But I want to be free, have harmony,
Maybe then I’ll get some cheer,

Or at least can I move to my dad’s house?
It’s so secure and caring there,
God I love my dad’s house,
The only place that I can bare,

I don’t want to stop writing this poem,
It might go on for a long time,
In fact I’ll never stop,
Well I will when I run out of rhyme,

Oh – now I’m getting tired,
I sort of want to sleep,
But I still want to go on a run,
Maybe in bare feet,

I have never gone on a run,
Lighten by the light of the moon,
But I think I really should,
Though I’ll probably look like a loon,

I’m going to go to bed now,
Though I don’t want to go to sleep,
I want to stay up and get outside,
In my cold but lovely bare feet.

Yey.xxx

xTr3m3sT
Member

since 2008-03-03

Posts 415

1 posted 2008-04-13 05:21 PM

Welcome to Pip! Excellent write, I will look forward to reading more of your poetry.

-Angel \m/

x-tears-x
Junior Member

since 2008-04-13

Posts 43
England

2 posted 2008-04-13 05:24 PM

thanks

Yey.xxx

shyvl
Senior Member

since 2008-04-11

Posts 531
texas, usa

3 posted 2008-04-13 05:25 PM

Very stream of conscencious. I enjoyed all the tangle of emotions--do we ever feel just one really. Thanks for sharing
sharyn

effjayel
Senior Member

since 2007-09-30

Posts 1474
At the Crossroads of Infinity

4 posted 2008-04-13 05:40 PM

Becky, I hope you are not contemplating anything rash. Reading between the lines I would say you need to talk to someone, I'm guessing you are not very old, maybe under 20? There is a worrying undercurrent to this and you other post & I urge you to either talk to a grown up or a teacher. If not, call The Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90 or Childline on 0800 1111 they are there for you 24/7. You may also want to check the posting guidelines as I think you may have fallen foul of the rules with this post. I should maybe report it but will not in the hope you will get this and take action before it gets tugged. Don't leave it until tomorrow, do it now, make the call... John

x-tears-x
Junior Member

since 2008-04-13

Posts 43
England

5 posted 2008-04-13 05:44 PM

ok i will...

NeonKnight
Junior Member

since 2008-04-12

Posts 36
New South Wales, Australia

6 posted 2008-04-13 05:46 PM

very good poetry, though a little unnerving, I know where you are coming from, I used to be very much like that in my teenage years. I certainly made a lot of mistakes.

effjayel
Senior Member

since 2007-09-30

Posts 1474
At the Crossroads of Infinity

7 posted 2008-04-13 05:52 PM

I hope you mean that Lady! if you are fazed by talking to a stranger ( you needn't be, I have rung them myself, but that was a 100 years ago...)click on the envelope ico at the top of my replies and e mail me Ok? it helps to unload on someone, trust me, I know these things & I am a real good listener...( cheap too

) John

Roniece Dawson-Bruce
Member Ascendant

since 2000-01-29

Posts 5689
Sydney, Australia

8 posted 2008-04-13 07:31 PM

Becky... I read this thru and my first reaction was ... this girl needs some help...please do what John suggests, call someone so that you can talk to them...call John, I know he is a great listener, he listens to me all the time!

your writing is filled with loneliness, noone needs to be alone in this world... I'm sending you some of my special

hugs to smile your day.... love RDB

Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight.........

Seoulair
Senior Member

since 2008-03-27

Posts 807
Seoul S.Korea

9 posted 2008-04-13 08:26 PM

Keep writing. Keep writing and talk to John.
At the bottom of your spirit doesn't mean that you can not climb up.

Larrysmom
Senior Member

since 2008-04-03

Posts 533
Florida, USA

10 posted 2008-04-13 08:45 PM

Welcome to pip!!!

Wow! This is an awesome write Tears… Makes me feel sad and lonely, confused and full of energy all at the same time.

Tammy<333

x-tears-x
Junior Member

since 2008-04-13

Posts 43
England

11 posted 2008-04-13 08:46 PM

thanks everyone...x

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