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Lonely Days |
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rickd48 New Member
since 2008-03-02
Posts 2 |
She says that she loves loves me but sleeps with another man. She says she misses me but spends her time with him. She goes so far away pretending she will return. I call her on the phone hoping shes alone. I think i have given her my best maybe I am wrong. Days go by when I think its time to let go. What will happen first? Letting go or two falling in love? Laying next to her is a dream that doesn't come true I lay on the couch to sad to make it to bed, to confused to fully fall asleep. I half awake dream of her walking threw the door, the tears subside and we lay there not saying a word just me finally holding her tight all her weight on top of mine. But then I awake to a sad music video. Not sure if I wanted the dream to end. I pick up the phone, maybe she called. So where do I go from here? I am so afraid to let go, to completely release her from my heart. Is that the only way to have her, for me to so completely banish her from my heart that i no longer want her? These are the question I ask my self on this lonely night. |
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effjayel Senior Member
since 2007-09-30
Posts 1474At the Crossroads of Infinity |
Rick I am sorry to read of the pain you are suffering. I know it is of no consolation right now because you believe there is nothing left. You are so wrong, it will take time without a doubt but one day you will awake and realise it is time to get on with your life. I nor anyone else can help you right now, only YOU can do that. No matter how many people respond & tell you this, you will not believe us and carry on beating yourself up. Why? because you are blaming yourself & WANT to endure the pain & agony in the hope you will feel better. One day you will be happy again but you have to begin the process now, today. If you really love her, you need to let her go & move on. it is very clear she no longer has feelings for you. But you already know this if you are honest with yourself. Please, move on, let her go...BTW, I would not advise you keep calling or trying to contact her as it will only make her even more mad at you & drive the wedge deeper between your selves.....good luck. John |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
Welcome to our pages blue... John has given you some wonderful advice here... I hope you can take something from it and move on and become happy in time... love RDB Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight......... |
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Alison 
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
Hi Rick It reads like hard times for you. It's one of those breaking-my-heart times. I am sorry that you are going through this, but I, too, agree with John. Welcome. Alison |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Nice writing...James |
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