This is soooooooooooo psychologically astute.
Now let me see if I get this right, because like I said, it's deceptive.
"I am the balance
You fail to maintain
Self doubt, your comfort"
People get all hung up on accuracy and truth in poetry and in life; poetry ain't reporting and life experience is subject to the colors of our own perceptions. So...
"I am the balance
You fail to maintain"
What is most important is the speaker feels objectified, even if the object in question is a not a tangible noun. It renders one a tool, and that's always a bad way to start. (The complexity comes in with the questions you seek answers for in philosophy, which is doesn't everyone expect something from everyone else?)
"Self doubt, your comfort"
I'm nodding again. Many of us (read huge blinking light over ME)have defined ourselves to stagnation, embracing even the things which are unfavorable. (I'm at the behavior modification part. With a prescription for chantix! *laughing and winking*) But some think that self-confidence means self-acceptance and shrug off their foibles as "just who I am."
Beware of them folk. They are not only gonna not TRY--they will expect you to be the "ever nurtuering, understanding 'mother'".
I won't go line by line, 'cause I don't have the time, but I felt your second stanza was a natural evolution of your opener:
Not of here
Not of there
Somewhere in between
We want resolution, don't we? And when that seems to be impossible, when all avenues of potential are blocked, both parties...withdraw, and this can become--habit. *thwack me on the head thrice 'cause I knew better*
"Will your soul
Passed to the beast
Of your excuses?"
This is the plaintive painful plea, and it hurts too--and the difference between reasons and excuses is point of view. But I think I 'get' this--tired of words that mean nothing. It's "show me or "b'low me" time."
You are the virtuous one"
Now this one is tricky too, because, paradoxically, deeming someone judgemental is a judgement.
"Last card turned up"
I might have left it at "last call" just to play on the word on the word temperance and suggest indulgence, but that's just me.
The reveal of the next card as you imply suggests that this the subject is cyclic, yet predictable.
Thanks for playing.
Thanks for understanding that there ain't no wrong answer.
And thanks for taking the challenge and keeping it uniquely you.
Love you lady!
You are growing so fast you will soon be Amazon.