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Susan Caldwell
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0 posted 2007-09-22 01:41 PM


A few disclaimers: if I posted this before, sorry, I'm old.  I don't usually do "songs" but this is the inspired answer to something commercial that I bonded with...
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It’s taken all this time for me to see, all this time for understanding to creep in
There were days when the hate consumed what was left of me
I cursed you, punished you a million times over as I lay in bed
all the time screaming that I should have left you for dead,
knowing in your mind that would have been better than the current shape you’re in

Hurting me
Leaving me blind
Shoving me so far away
Nothing seemed easy to find
and I could finally see what wasn’t good for me

It’s a knowledge that ate away at my best intent; a relentless voice scratching at my brain
I couldn’t make the wars in your head cease firing
I couldn’t make the self inflicted wounds heal
so I buried the failure and blamed it on whatever felt real
feeling somewhere below the surface it was I who was responsible for all this pain

Hurting me
Leaving me blind
Shoving me so far away
Nothing seemed easy to find
and I could finally see what wasn’t good for me

So with aching eyes and bleeding heart I listened to you say goodbye
Wishing you could recognize, that being here, even like this, was my life
I lost a part of me when you decided you couldn’t be what I needed
Three months of silent begging of the phone and self-hate for so easily having conceded
Three months of asking myself how you could so effortlessly cease to try

Hurting me
Leaving me blind
Shoving me so far away
Nothing seemed easy to find
and I could finally see what wasn’t good for me
For me
For me
For me

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

© Copyright 2007 Susan Caldwell - All Rights Reserved
JamesMichael
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1 posted 2007-09-22 09:01 PM


Lots of emotions here...James
Sekishu
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2 posted 2007-09-23 11:24 AM


I like songs, this one is very deep.
secondhanddreampoet
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3 posted 2007-09-23 11:49 AM


grandly 'real', finely emotive, superbly powerful 'write'!

[I could never likely 'do' realism...but,    
  tremendously admire those who can!]

very serious, long-sustained applause!!

JL
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4 posted 2007-09-25 07:48 AM


"Hurting me
Leaving me blind
Shoving me so far away
Nothing seemed easy to find
and I could finally see what wasn’t good for me"

Sad heartfelt song, well understood.

JL

Blessed are those who are generous, because they feed the poor.
~Proverbs 22:9 NLT

vandana
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5 posted 2007-09-25 11:06 AM


enjoyed
Susan Caldwell
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since 2002-12-27
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Florida
6 posted 2007-09-25 03:41 PM


Thank you all.

No one recognizes what popular song this is an answer to??

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

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