Sailor you are a memory of my mis forgotten past. Who created a wound unhealing a sore which would always last.
An injury that is incurable inserted upon a dream just barely endurable enough that I could scream. A pain placed so deep within my soul that it penetrates my heart like the treachery of a quick drawn sword.
Reflecting upon our first meeting how your face oh so shinned, with the strength of your character, yet,
by love I was blind. You deceived me completely by the smile upon your face, so I became the victim of your ultimate chase And as I looked deep inside your starry blue eyes I saw a foundation that was built upon lies.
You stood there and told me the dreams of your youth with words softly spoken a token of truth. For love and compassion I trusted your speech hoping in some way it was intended to teach. When your pursuit was then over you had my love oh so true, the days were then numbered that I would be with you.
You said that you loved me, you told me not to grieve, you wanted no commitment you knew you had to leave. On that day that you left me I did everything but weep and in my heart everlasting it was you that I kept. I had looked inside of your fantasy, the romantic dreams of your youth and I had made them mine thinking they were the ultimate truth.
And to those fruitful visions I devoted five years of my life, despite the distance between us it was only a matter of time. There were times that you wrote me the other times I'd grieve, but somehow I continued to love, be persuaded, and believe. You wrote of your contentment you had a full almost complete life, but I was the piece you were missing the empty place in your life.
So you voyaged across the ocean , you traveled across the lands your heart containing devotion and your mind containing plans. And when time and distance had taken their toll your letters did cease to perpetually flow. Yet I continued, I persisted to write, thinking you'd return to me by the starlit sky's of night. I lived those months in sorrow and in thriving pain and that is when I realized that my love for you had driven me insane.
Yet, I recovered I took hold of my life , it was then that i discovered the glorious book of life. I read all those love filled scriptures and became everything but bored, and then I turned my love for you over to the lord. I told God that I loved you and that I wanted to be your wife but I said thy will not mine be done in regard in this life.
It was two years since I seen you and I sensed that I should write. I knew you were free from the military now much to my delight. And when you did not answer I called you on the 'phone I was all prepared to wed you now much to my delight. And I told you how I loved you, about how God had changed my life and that I's prayed he'd touch your soul and bless your future life.
You said God had indeed blessed you and he did enter your empty life and when he did he blessed you with a beautiful spirit filled wife! And you spoke of your contentment and you spoke to me real sweet, you spoke of how your life was now 100% complete. So, now your just a memory and antiquity of my
past, who created a wound unhealing a sore which would always last. Yes, sometimes growth takes hurt in life, Sometimes growth takes pain. So we can climb the aches in time and not remain the same!
[This message has been edited by jody5 (04-30-2008 04:19 PM).]