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justanotherstorm
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since 2007-10-24

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0 posted 2007-11-03 07:06 PM

I cant take this
My emotions are too much
I gotta break this
My anger is outta control
So much confusion
Life seems like a delusion
This cant be reality
God give me back my humanity
Or is this just me
Am I goin crazy
Need to get outta this world and come back in it
Losing control is just the beginning
My anger need to let it out
But I don't wanna
I'll hurt too many people
Oh wait I already did now people hate me
I need to be rearranged
But I cant
Just stop holdin me back
I need to do this alone
I wanna go home
To my Father
But His face I cant see it
Why??
He turned away from me
He left me
That's it im gone
I see fire
Now Im entering an abyss
Goodbye God
Tell my friends...
He turns to me and says
"You wont be missed"

justanotherstorm
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1 posted 2007-11-03 07:07 PM

ok theres a lot of spelling errors and i did that on purpose so yeah

rebelangelv
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2 posted 2007-11-03 07:25 PM

dang thats deep dude. i can kinda relate. two of my friends are kinda going thru the same stuff. but it sounds like ur a chritian so ima tell u the same thing: just hold on. god will never leave u he loves u and w/e u did that is hurting u and making life suck he'll forgive just run to him. u may not see y this is happening now but u will once its passed and i knwo ppl say it alot but it amazing once u reach that place. take form me i just went thru it about 3 weeks ago and is still in shock

justanotherstorm
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3 posted 2007-11-03 08:05 PM

yeah im a christain just fallin a lot

one day i'll leave this cruel world
one day i'll surely pass
but w/e is left behind is my dangerous past
i'll die with regret
i'll die because of anger
i'll die by suicide

hunnie_girl

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4 posted 2007-11-03 08:12 PM

Am I goin crazy~

Maybe it's just the rest of the world going crazy and u staying sane? nice poem

Krysti

rebelangelv
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5 posted 2007-11-03 08:14 PM

dude dont talk like that. if ur a christian then run to god u dont need to do that stuff. itll b alirght w/es going on. itll past. yes theyre will b mistakes in this world and regrets but u have life ahead of u stop looking back and look ahead and move fwd. email me if u need to talk im here definately.

justanotherstorm
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6 posted 2007-11-03 08:14 PM

thanks hunnie_girl

justanotherstorm
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7 posted 2007-11-03 08:15 PM

run to God yea ive been tryin to do that buts Hes the one running away

rebelangelv
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8 posted 2007-11-03 08:16 PM

god never runs away. u must be scared to get close. or maybe its just not in ur power to do it by yourself. get someone to help u. ill help if u need it

justanotherstorm
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9 posted 2007-11-03 08:22 PM

im cool i got my friends

rebelangelv
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10 posted 2007-11-03 08:25 PM

well go to them and make sure that they are strong christians too to get you back to god. seriously just pull yourself out of your dark abyss. its not worth it

justanotherstorm
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11 posted 2007-11-03 08:30 PM

christians arent that helpful at times all they say is ill pray for you or ask God why would i care about that im goin to my friends that care

rebelangelv
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12 posted 2007-11-03 08:39 PM

well thats true not all christians are helpful but u cant label all christians like that especially since ur one. but like i said if u relaly want help go to a friend that cares and will pray for u cuz that will help. and if ur struggling w/ god do u really think someone who doesnt know god will help u?

justanotherstorm
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13 posted 2007-11-03 08:43 PM

yes i do know that people will help me even if they dont know god why do u think non christians wont help people cuz they aint christian
i didnt know god and i still helped people

rebelangelv
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14 posted 2007-11-03 08:51 PM

u may have helped ppl but not w/ their walk with god. if u wanna have ppl ehlp u who aint christians then thats cool but i assure u that they will not help u with ur walk with god. they may try but it wont work in fact itll prolly most likely only bring u more down , more pulled into this abyss u claim ur in.

justanotherstorm
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15 posted 2007-11-03 08:52 PM

i wasnt talkin about my walk but whatever

rebelangelv
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16 posted 2007-11-03 08:55 PM

well i was . if ur all suicidal then u need god

justanotherstorm
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17 posted 2007-11-03 09:31 PM

we need God even when we are happy not just the cruel times

rebelangelv
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18 posted 2007-11-03 09:49 PM

thats true

Elias Nevermore
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19 posted 2007-11-05 06:16 PM

good poem. I am a christian too, so i get where you are coming from. hope to read some more of your stuff

justanotherstorm
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20 posted 2007-11-05 08:49 PM

thanks

surf_painter
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21 posted 2007-11-05 09:25 PM

oh wow it was an amazing poem i loved it can't wait for more

justanotherstorm
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22 posted 2007-11-05 10:23 PM

thnx

Assassin_of_Verse
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23 posted 2007-11-08 11:43 PM

Very emotional poem. I like the fact you didn't bother with spelling, it makes the poem even more powerful. Also, I'd just like to point out that all the people above (myself included) loved your peom and its passion.

This is one of many reasons not to go suicidal! I won't pretend to understand, because I don't. It seems that God isn't always there, but you have to keep going.

From someone who doesn't understand, but still cares. -Andrew

As assassin shouldn't fall in love.
-The lovestruck assassin

justanotherstorm
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24 posted 2007-11-10 12:43 PM

thank u

Seeker72
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25 posted 2007-11-10 01:37 AM

My Aunt committed Suicide.

She scarred 16 lives.

Didn't believe in god but the Holy bottle.

I'm not a believer as such but I do believe there is a higher power.

Hell the same suicidal thought has run through my mind so many times i can't count.

I put that down to the basic fundamentals that poets see and feel the world differently.

We are a doomed race from the start, yet if we live and consume the emotions we see and feel within ourselves... then put them down from ink unto paper... we are a reason for being.

We are messengers.

Messengers for those that don't see the world quite just right.

That in itself is a reason to stick around.

We have a gift.

As you have clearly shown.

We have a gift for a reason.

Dark or light.

We are a Ying or a Yang.

So that those that are lost or need that one small ounce of something, can happen upon our path and find the thing they were looking for.

That very thing keeps me breathing.

Your poem was good... very good.

It reminded me of my Aunts Suicide.

It woke me up a little.

Thank you.

Artic Wind
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26 posted 2007-11-12 10:15 PM

Enjoyed

ARCTIC WIND

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