Pretty well, thank you. Heading back into therapy again. I find that if I don't revisit every few years, my thinking gets too rigid and I find it harder to surprise myself. I find it helps shake up the story I tell myself about who I am and how I got this way, and that's always a good thing for me.
Also I'm writing in a way that I enjoy, and I'm happy with that, and I'm exercising on a Bowflex machine, so I can feel my body putting itself together so I can invest a little bit more in simple things like breathing and walking and stretching and reaching. The program is very specific, so I don't have to feel helpless in the face of a limitless and unmeasurable task; I just put in about twenty or 30 minutes three times a week, and as long as I keep on doing it, my body keeps paying me back with these little pieces of satisfaction in myself. I have to get used to the feeling, because I'm not used to such a feeling of physical pride and pleasure with so small an investment of time.
I'm doing it at the dame time as a diet, but I could do it simply to bulk up if I weren't overweight to begin with.
Is that the kind of thing you were thinking abou, FR?
I'm glad you're taking some antidepressants, and I hope they work out well for you. Exercise can be helpful as an adjunct, and can speed up an improved mood and better concentration by quite a bit, if done along with medication. And Medication plus cognitive therapy are roughly twice as effective as either one alone. FYI.
Keep on trucking, FR. My impression is that you're finding out a lot about yourself these days, and that you're trying to put together a new idea of the kind of guy you are and want to be. That's smart, thoughtful work that involves a fair amount of thinking and rethinking. A guy needs to do that sort of stuff every now and again or else get stuck for longer than you need to be stuck. So good for you.
Best to you, guy, Bob Kaven