Listening to every heart
Fee, I remember your early words, and I was taken up by the soul of your emotions even then.
What we take on is of our own accord; we must then balance our needs against the needs of those we seemingly have let down. I say seemingly because they will go on to be their own people, with their own problems, and while I have no knowledge of either story of what stood between you and your first husband, you must rely on faith and the fact that you and all of yours, both past and present, with get beyond this. If you must face truths, then face them with grace. If you did nothing wrong, then do not say wrong of the other; for it will 'out' in time.
Be true to what your heart needs, as long as it was not done in selfishness. Remember to step back now and then, to get a sense of what is, and to always remember that "what is" is not always about "us".
And inbetween those layers, m'dear, know that you are in my prayers.