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Kellie_Cantrell
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0 posted 10-29-2006 09:40 PM       View Profile for Kellie_Cantrell   Email Kellie_Cantrell   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Kellie_Cantrell

I feel wounded today. I was invited to a party. I had to work the night before 2pm-9pm but didn't get off till 9:15, my commute home takes 30 minutes, so I got home at 9:45pm. I ate dinner, excercised and went to bed at 11pm. I had to be at work at 7:30am the next morning so I woke up at 6am got ready and got to work at 7:15. I got off work at 3pm and it took me till 4pm to get home, traffic was bad and I had to go the long way because of construction. I was tired so I went to sleep. I slept till about 7pm which is when I was supposed to pick up a friend and go to the party. I called her and told her I was still really tired and that she should call another friend for a ride. Asked her for the address so I could come later, she didn't want to give it to me.  Today I woke up with messages on my phone from all of my closest friends telling me that we were no longer friends because I am not a good friend.  

Yet the friend that I didn't pick up to give a ride, owes me money, mooches off of me, asks me to drive her all over the countryside without offering a cent of gas money when gas prices are nearly $3 a gallon and I NEVER complain, but I fail to pick her up for a party and now I am a friend that is uncapable of having plans, unreliable and cruel. Whatev. I am so sick of people and for her to manipulate ALL of my friends and all they each left me on my phone was. Hi Kellie. I don't want to be your friend anymore, please don't contact me ever again.

So now I basically have nobody to talk to when I am upset and its like crushing me inside that I have no one to turn to now because they all have turned against me.  I am a failure.
Juju
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1 posted 10-29-2006 11:01 PM       View Profile for Juju   Email Juju   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Juju's Home Page   View IP for Juju

Yeah,  I am sympathetic.  I had a very similliar thing happen to me.
-Juju

-Juju

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Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts " Silent all these Years, Tori Amos

sandgrain
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2 posted 10-30-2006 09:48 PM       View Profile for sandgrain   Email sandgrain   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for sandgrain

You always have a friend in Jesus.  I have no idea what your religion is, but you can still talk to Him.  I used to think that was an insane idea, until I finally felt it was the only place I had to turn.  How happy I am that I did.

   Rae
Neeraja
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3 posted 11-27-2006 06:16 AM       View Profile for Neeraja   Email Neeraja   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Neeraja

You are NOT a failure!!!  They simply don't deserve to have you as a friend!!!  New friends will come Kelly... and in new friends I mean TRUE friends!!!

For now I wish you all the strength and courage to deal with this feeling of loss.

Take care of yourself, you're a beautiful soul!

Neeraja
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4 posted 11-27-2006 09:17 AM       View Profile for Marge Tindal   Email Marge Tindal   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Marge Tindal's Home Page   View IP for Marge Tindal


To me, this really sounds so immature, of your supposed friends ... Kellie, if one person can influence that many immature people to line up on their side ... what in this world would you need any of them for ?

Sounds like a good day to find and make new friends to me~

*Huglets*
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5 posted 11-28-2006 11:33 PM       View Profile for hunnie_girl   Email hunnie_girl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for hunnie_girl

if you ever need someone to tell your feelings too i'm always here for you Kelliejust send me an email if you want. good friends don't do what your "friends" did to you they should have been more understanding to be a true friend. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Best Wishes,
Krysti
LeeJ
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6 posted 11-30-2006 12:47 PM       View Profile for LeeJ   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for LeeJ

I can count on my 20 toes and 30 fingers all accaintances, but my true friends, I count on one hand of 5 fingers.  I'm going to tell you something a friend told me...don't allow yourself to be a door mat...for anyone...gravite towards those who are not followers, users...and above all, never ever sell yourself short...look for new friends, in the meantime, do things by yourself...go out to dinner with a great book...don't be afraid to do things alone, soon, you'll find, you like the company you keep, not to mention, get in touch with the soul of who you are.

Hugs
gemjop
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7 posted 12-12-2006 08:55 AM       View Profile for gemjop   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for gemjop

Wow, when i read what you said they all ganged up and left for you on your answerphone message, i actually laughed out loud! Little girls say that to eachother when they're between the ages of four and nine years of age. I don't know how old you are, or they are, but man, do you want to be friends with such children?

It sounds like you're trying to cope with the realities of everyday, but i don't know which part of reality your friends are living in. But then again, if you let people use you, and NOT complain, then this is what you can expect, over again.
Huan Yi
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8 posted 12-22-2006 03:22 PM       View Profile for Huan Yi   Email Huan Yi   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Huan Yi

The Irish say that a long loneliness
is better than bad company.


And there’s the always reliable:
“With such friends, who needs enemies?”

Kellie_Cantrell
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9 posted 01-17-2007 02:40 PM       View Profile for Kellie_Cantrell   Email Kellie_Cantrell   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Kellie_Cantrell

I still haven't spoken to them. I play an online game in the same server as one of them, the one I didn't go to the party with, and she said some really nasty stuff about me on the forum there. I got KOS (killed on sight) by almost half the game for a week. Then I realized, I don't need a game to make me happy.  I don't know who I am anymore, or who I can trust. But believe me each day is a struggle and all I want to do is run away from it all.  The truth hurts and denial is really hard to shy away from.  
 
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