I feel wounded today. I was invited to a party. I had to work the night before 2pm-9pm but didn't get off till 9:15, my commute home takes 30 minutes, so I got home at 9:45pm. I ate dinner, excercised and went to bed at 11pm. I had to be at work at 7:30am the next morning so I woke up at 6am got ready and got to work at 7:15. I got off work at 3pm and it took me till 4pm to get home, traffic was bad and I had to go the long way because of construction. I was tired so I went to sleep. I slept till about 7pm which is when I was supposed to pick up a friend and go to the party. I called her and told her I was still really tired and that she should call another friend for a ride. Asked her for the address so I could come later, she didn't want to give it to me. Today I woke up with messages on my phone from all of my closest friends telling me that we were no longer friends because I am not a good friend.
Yet the friend that I didn't pick up to give a ride, owes me money, mooches off of me, asks me to drive her all over the countryside without offering a cent of gas money when gas prices are nearly $3 a gallon and I NEVER complain, but I fail to pick her up for a party and now I am a friend that is uncapable of having plans, unreliable and cruel. Whatev. I am so sick of people and for her to manipulate ALL of my friends and all they each left me on my phone was. Hi Kellie. I don't want to be your friend anymore, please don't contact me ever again.
So now I basically have nobody to talk to when I am upset and its like crushing me inside that I have no one to turn to now because they all have turned against me. I am a failure.