Sycamore, IL, USA
Oh my, sounds like you feel abandoned on a hopeless island. How frightening! You might call a church, county or city services or even a hospital telling them you need direction. They can put you in touch with help. There's all kinds of it out there but you have to start somewhere. No one should spend their time feeling so badly, but sometimes we get in a rut and can't find our way out. Please make some contact in your area for further directions before things get worse. I'll say a prayer for you and you can e-mail me if you'd like.