Beneath the northern stars
OK, here I am with a more in depth reply. It is weird that everyone got to know each other through you, and now you are the one being excluded. I haven't had exactly the same thing happen to me, but I've had something similar: when I was the passive one whose friends came first, everyone just loved me, but when I picked other people over my friends (like my family and my fiance--he's my husband now but anyway) I was selfish, I was "letting a guy change me," etc. Never mind that the people that said those things to me would pick their families, boyfriends, and their other friends over me ANY day. Yo know, it is really sad that we are in college and people want to pull the same childish actions as a grade schooler. I guess human nature never changes, does it?
I hope someday you get the chance to live like you were dying....