Sycamore, IL, USA
Sorry to think you're sad and in pain. I do believe urgency gets our creative juices going, but it would surely be nice to feel urgent about good, happy things, wouldn't it? In my own case, I've always found reading or hearing of others worse off than I am, gave me cause to be thankful, and lifted my spirits. Helping others is probably the greatest way to help ourselves out of the dulldrums or sad ruts of life.
Happy New Year to you,