In your dreams
I hate love. Why?! It confuses me. And beleive me it makes me an irrational person. Why is it that a guy who has had no contact with me in six months now try to go up and talk to me,, and wait he couldn't/
First I saw him at starbucks and I did the whole eyebrow raise wink and then later that day he attempted to approuch me when I was doing homework..
He had to spend forrty five minutes pacing back and forrth/ starring at me/ Walking away and coming back.
You know I swear I got over him a week ago.
It seems that when over I get over this guy he reapears with in days and then I remember my fealings. I just wantit over with I cant study or consintrate!
And beleive me if he was a bad guy... I would be like in my head "he's a bad guy" but no. The worst part is I remember hurting him one to many times and it nearly kills me. I don't know what's worse missing him or feeeling guilty for driving him away.
lets see what did I do
-ignored him countless times
-I didn't kiss him- which I keep making up excuses, but overall I rgret it.
- I think he thought I turned him down for another guy (not true
-I had to many "guy friends" (non of which I was serious about, but toyed with there effection for amusemen, which I don't do anymore, because my friends sat me down and told me I was evil- for doing that) hanging around me
-Didn't notice he was in my biology(lecture) class
-I was comnpletly ablevious
I made a decision yesterday if he went uip to me and asked me to go out with him or talk or what ever that I would reply, but I think I relize now, I am just confused. Perhaps I should seek him out. maybe I caused him to much pain. hE NEVER SHOWED UP TODAY...
That's it I am going to work out! Auh
Juju - 1.) a magic charm or fetish 2.)Magic 3.)A taboo connected woth the use of magic
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