I am so confused right now. About my relationship with what i thought to be one of my closest freinds till about a month ago.
What happened was, that i began to get feelings for him, and he did to. we both ended up pushing each other away, and everything has just been weird between us. We never talk, and he thinks i am talking about him, and i hear he is saying stuff about me, and then he will turn around and act like nothing has even heppened!
GRRRR......I am so confused.
What do i do, just act like i dont care, and just keep going along with the silent thing thats been going on, or do I tell him whats going on and how i still feel, and risk him laughing in my face, and telling the whole school? Which, he is the kinda guy i am not sure if he wwould do that or not.
I dont know. I miss him so much, but i just dont know if i can forgive and forget that easily. I reall;y want to though. Even if i did, nothing would be the same...But I am sooo tired of going back and forth in emotions for him. I really love him. alot.
UGH! I think i have a commitment problem....lol i am so pathetic.
I ask why, but in my mind,
I find i cant really rely on myself.