it sure as well may be all about trust, but at my age, I've learned to trust myself very well, and sink no investment in someone else's hands, that way, there are no expectations, avoiding any hurt...besides, I've never known someone who could go the distance..and so, I am not missing anything.
I just think that we'd all be a lot better off by being more self supportive, not relying on others for our happiness.
Being independent, puts life in a whole new perspective...
I don't need anyone to take care of me
or feel insecure because I am not a couple
I can go anywhere I please, eat when I'm hungry, watch anything I want on TV, go for a walk, sing in the shower, without anyone coming to look for me, or telling me to shut up b/c I have no opinion or voice.
And until I find the right guy, why should I compromise what I have now? This is the first time in my life I've been alone, and by God, it was hard at first...I wonder now even if I might have been a bit co-dependent...but now...I'm liking it...more and more...and yes, there are lonely times, but not lonely enough to become the sole caregiver and being a mother to some man again...there are good wonderful men out there, believe me...there are, but, I don't know if I ever want to trust someone with my heart ever again. That kind of pain was awful...and never do I wish to go there again. Call me an ol bitty, whatever...but, there is so much more peace now, and whats good for one, may not be good for another...cause I think I had my fill of trusting everyone else, instead of God.