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kissa~rachelle Senior Member
since 2003-11-27
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My life just seems to just be unbearable right now. I really like this guy right? And he liked or likes me back...but over the past few weeks we have sort of grown apart and it hurts sooo much. I spent all day today crying, and i just cant seemto let him go. I try so hard, but i cant...he is moving over the weekend, and i know that nothing is ever going to be the same. IT jsut sort of hit me for the first time. REally hard. I started to cry, and jsut couldnt stop. I jsut dont know how to handle it anymore. I just feel so lost, and emotionally drained. I just want to go to sleep, and never wake up. ( not meant suicidally) it hurts to even move. Physically and emotionally. i cant go without one minute of thinking about him atleast once...i mean, i am about to cry just writing this. i hate it that i let myself get so attatched. The last time i felt even close to what i feel right now, i promised i would never open p like that to a guy, and i did, and i really loved him, and i still do, and it jsut hurts so bad. I want to just pick up the phone and call him, but for one, i am grounded, and two, i wouldnt know what to say to him. Atleast anything that would make a difference. Why did i have to fall in love with him. I knew i should have just stopped everything, the moment we got that close. I just really miss him. I miss how things used to be. But they will never be like that again. I just cant seem to accept it. Karissa... I want a relationship i can finally sink my teeth into.~ Alexander Sterling |
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Member Seraphic
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maybe you could explain to your folks that while you understand you are grounded, you have someone you care a great deal for, that is moving and you would gladly trade them a phone call for another week of being grounded. Tell them it means that much to you. Call him if you can, tell him how you feel. Don't regret the words not being spoken, be proud of yourself for having the guts to say it. The worst that can happen is he doesn't feel the same. At least you wouldn't have that "I should have told him" on you...beleive me those things tend to be clingy.... sorry honey...my heart hurts for you  |
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kissa~rachelle Senior Member
since 2003-11-27
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thank you...i really appreciate your comments... It is really hard to tell him...there have been times when i was soooo close to telling him, and chickened out at the last minute. And now it would be a lot harder, considering we dont talk very much anymore, and he is moving this weekend. I dont know. I will try to work up the courage. I am just erally scared that he will laugh in my face. I dont know if i could handle it. Anyways, thanks for everything lately. Karissa I want a relationship i can finally sink my teeth into.~ Alexander Sterling |
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