I really like this person, that likes me back...or atleast i am almost positive he does.
Today, i went to his house, and we were laying on his moms bed, and he kept putting his arms around me, and holding me, and it was just so sweet, and i just never wanted to leave, and he was flirting really bad, and...it was jsut little things, but i know that he feels that there is something there...i can see it in his eyes, but everytime we get too close he pushes me away. (not literally)
Like today. and it just really hurts. I think i finaly may know why, but it doesnt make any sense.
He is moving in a year, to arkansas, and says that he doesnt want to get into a serious relationship, knowing that in a year, it will be over...
Which doesnt make any sense to me. If i knew that in a year the person i really either love or like a lot, was gonna be gone, i would want to spend every miniute i had with them...it just really hurts waht he is doing to me right now, and he knows what he is putting me through, i mean, today i practically cried...(after we left his house)
He just started pushing me away again, and saying things that just hurt me sooo...bad, and talked about his old girlfreinds, and started flirting whith one of my best friends...and then today was just going so well, then he turned around and had to start all of this again...i dont know what to do anymore.
I care about him sooo..much, we have been friends forever, and i really want to be with him, but he jsut...i just dont know how to handle it, if i should just leave it alone, or what?
I am just really hurting right now, and needed to do something...i think this helped a little...
Thank you guys, for always being there...i know i can always count on the wonderful people here...