Irrational,,,no. I turned 33 yeaterday, it hasn't yet been a year since I lost my father (this past October).
I felt like the lowest form of scum, for not being able to be there to say good bye in person.
He fought and beat colon cancer, to be taken down by a bum liver....
I lived in dread of the phone call that did eventually come.
It hurts (beyond hurts) to lose a parent,,,let alone the one you are closest to, and I do hope people understand that statement,,,,,,
The fear of losing them, is something most all of us have had to face.
I guess this reply jumps around a bit, and doesn't make a whole lotta sense, but, I just wanted you to know it's ok to feel scared, age doen't matter on this subject,
I wish all could find the true happiness I have found,,in the eyes of Mike