I am going through a really rough time with my parents right now, bacause lately i have been making a few not so good choices, and i am to be grounded till June 10th... I know that it isnt like way long or anything, but i feel that i am drifting appart from my friends... They are really important to me.. and i feel like i am losing them. I am afraid that once i do finally get ungrounded, everything is gonna be different, and we arent going to be close, or as close anymore. Tonight my friend wanted me to go with her to this rooster day fair thing going on right now, and i cant, and she is going with her mom, and a few of our other friends..maybe. I donno i am just scared. I havent ever really had friends until the recent year, and now that i do, i dont know what i would do if i lost them. I nkow this is probably really stupid.. but it is how i feel, and i cant talk to anyone lse about it, becuase, my parents would think that i was just trying to get them to let me go out or wahtever, and i dunno. I just need someone to talk to....
I want a relationship i can finally sink my teeth into.~ Alexander Sterling