I think i am in love with this guy. Everytime i see him, i get this feeling... I dunno, like i am about to go on stage and preform in front of millions of poeple or something. Everytime he touches me or hugs me my heart starts racing. Its coplicated though. I know for a fact that he likes or maybe used to like my best friend, and there is no way i can even compare to her at all. she is skinny, and funny, and shes perfect, except she can be sort of a drama queen.~lol Anyways, and me and his cousin went out, and his other cousin is like my brother. to top all that off, his cuzin J.T, thinks i like him. (the like mY brother one) which i dont. I dont know, and i am grounded so i dont see them very often. But when i do i totally spaz. Well, i dont spaz out, but all that stuff about my heart racing happens. And the other day, they came by, and i had just gotten out of the shower, and didnt have any makeup on and my hair was acary lookin, and anyways, I told them hey and stuff, then they had to go, and nick went to give me a hug, and i didnt realyisze it, and i gave jt a hug first, and so i think that looked really bad.
but i didt think nick was gonna give me a hug first, because usually he makes me give ihim a hug, and never moves to give me a hug, and i guess i just.. I dont know. I am really scared to tell him how i feel, cuz i dont want him to like flip on me, and be all weird aroud me, if he doesnt like me back, and if he does like me, and we go out i am afraid that he is going to screw me over
(cheat on me) with my friend Lyndsey, (the one he likes or liked)then everything would definetly be screwed up, and i just have no clue what to do. Any comments you have i would really appreciate!!!
(good or bad)