state of marital bliss
I'm writing to you, my friends, because I need honest, un-biased opinions on a dog situation here. And although you know pieces of me through my writing here, as an outsider to all that I am, you can give me a response that is not coated to protect the expressions you may see in my eyes.
I have a dog, Freckles, who has been part of our family since she was itty-bitty. She was a gift to me from my ex-husband, who was not my ex at the time, after one of our many arguments (probably about a flower pot, or something stupid).
Anyhow, she is a mixed breed, looks like maybe a type of terrier and lab. Ice blue eyes. Many people have asked if she was blind. Yada...yada...yada...
The meat of my offering here: she is unpredictable. Very loving, but will snap if she feels threatened in any manner, whether it is legitimate, or not. She doesn't go around snap happy, but she will bite if she feels her food source is being over taken (we don't feed her around the kids, and she is a back-yard dog)...she bites if she is hiding and you try to remove her (like if she hides under the bed when she sneaks in sometimes, and you try to get her out). She does not snap at me, but she does snap at my husband and at the kids.
I've had her for 11 years. She's always been this way. It is not something that is aggrivating with age.
Yesterday, after walking around the neighborhood and playing in the ice...she hid under the water heater in our garage. My son (11) went with her leash to take her into the back yard. She came out from under the water heater snapping at him, wihtout any sort of provoking. My husband interviened, thank goodness. He had on leather work gloves and as he tried to get her from under the thing, she was repeatedly chewing on his hands. Through the glove, she caused many punctures. Nothing worthy of stitches, but his hands were just screaming with pain, and today, one hand is swollen from the trauma.
I know she needs to be not here. I have 3 kids, and their friends are in and out of our home...
it is not a good situation.
In my heart I know she's a good dog, I really do...but I need to get past the compassion and be able to handle a change that makes a safer environment for my family.
I told my husband that I didn't want to know what he decides to "do"...we had talked about having her put down at the vet before. We cannot take her to the shelter, because I'm sure she would be euthanized right away, in cold, unfamiliar territory. We cannot find a home for her, because I'm afraid she would cause harm to someone else.
She's only known me. I feel she's been my responsibility. Please offer me suggestions on how to get beyond my feeling of guilt for failing her...by allowing her absence from our family so abruptly.