blues & greys
grrrrrrrrrr, i just typed like three paragraphs and the freaking internet cut off.
so lets see if i can remeber what i just wrote
well after i posted this i went home and tlaked to her, she was basically in tears, she said she felt stupid, and she hated herselrf because it was like she was going back to her old ways. but instead of causing a fight, because i hate fights, i told her it was ok, consoled her, and made her feel better about it then left it be, no need to discuss it again. i dont know, but i really dont think she can hurt me, i mean sure she could, but i dont think she will.
and i do love her, i care more about her than life, i live for her. which might shoud crazy stupid, dumb, or all of the above
but she deserves better than what she has had in her past. a bunch of no good a holes that treated her like dirt, and i come along and treat her like a queen, because she is my queen. and i think this scares her a litle, actually i know it does. she has never had someone care about her this much, so she is a little a gasp. which i guess is understandable.
i told her i loved her liek a month ago, i wasent how i envisioned it. i was drunk on the bathroom floor crying and it came out. but i ment it then and i still do now. but she said that somewhere deep down inside she knew she did, she just wasent ready yet. which is understandable. i told her the next day that i ment it, every word, but i wasent going ot tell her i love you and all that stuff, of force it upon her and ask her everyday. since that day i have not brought it up, she has a couple if times hinting she is falling for me. but i wont, what ind of person would i be if i did.
but anyways, thats the update...
"There never was a genius without a tincture of madness."