Beneath the northern stars
On August 25th I go back to school. It'll be my 4th year at community college. I'm looking forward to it but I really don't know how to handle some of the antics anymore! I mean, I am (was?) good friends with these four people in particular, I will call them Ryan, Jill, Katie, and Jamie. For the record, Ryan and Jill date each other and Jamie is my ex boyfriend. Anyway, for some reason Ryan and Jill don't like Katie and they are always saying so when Katie isn't around. They make comments to me and to others about her, but they are nice and friendly to her when she is around. I don't mean just polite, I mean they act like she is their friend. For example one time Ryan, Jill, and I went out to eat with a few other people, and Katie and her boyfriend showed up at the same restaurant. Jill saw Katie and she called out, "hey, over here, come sit with us!" Well the other night Katie found out about the comments they make behind her back so she was upset about that. Also Ryan and Jill make fun of Jamie whenever he isn't around as well. They make fat jokes, gay jokes, stupidity jokes, laziness jokes etc. about him even though they know he would be upset if he found out about them. The last time Jamie and I hung out I mentioned the fact that I hate it when people talk about others behind their backs, and he said, "does anyone say anything about me?" but I told him no. Katie doesn't like Jamie very much either for no reason at all. I even asked her why and she said, "well, I don't know, I just always thought he was creepy." Jamie as I said before is my ex and now Katie wants me to date some guy her boyfriend is friends with. She said something along the lines of, "what if you were with someone nicer?" and I asked her what she meant by that, and in reply she said, "just...nicer." I have a strong suspicion she means someone who she thinks is nicer than Jamie because I know how she feels about him. I mentioned the fact that Katie wants to set me up with someone else and that I am not interested to Jamie, not because he's my ex but just because he was there so I talked to him. Then he went to Jill with this and said, "I'm trying to figure out why Liz doesn't want to date this guy." Well I am not going to date someone just because one friend thinks he's nicer than than another friend. I wish that Jamie would have talked to me about it himself instead of mentioning it to Jill. I wish Ryan and Jill wouldn't talk about Katie behind her back the way they do. This has gotten to the point where I really don't want to be around anyone! I used to trust Ryan and Jill with my life, and now I've started to wonder do they talk about me the way they talk about Katie and Jamie? And I wish Jamie would be direct with me. It upsets me that I am really the only one of us who is respectful towards him--everyone else makes fun of him for every reason in the book--and I don't but since he is my ex that can easily be misconstrued into something it isn't. I respect him the same way I do my other friends but of course since he is my ex that must mean I'm in love with him. I'm not! I know something ought to be said about all this because everyone is talking about everyone else but not only do I not want to say it, it isn't my place to say anything. I'm confused and I don't know who to trust anymore.
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...
[This message has been edited by skyshine (08-02-2003 02:18 PM).]