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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside 
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I felt the need to say, I'm sorry about my recent post in the open forum, "Be Safe" First off, it was not directed towards anyone in particular...my sensitive side is kicking in big time today, and yes I am hurting. One reason being, that I see so many of you on here who appear to have formed a bond, be it in friendship, or perhaps something more...or less...dueting together, whatever the connection may be, which tells me several of you keep in touch regularly. And that is a wonderful thing for those of you who do. Over the years I have tried to reach out to those who I assumed felt the same way I do, who wanted a friend, and knew how to be one. I have acted inappropriately on a few occasions, maybe the word gets around. ugh~ I have taken it upon myself to initiate contact when I felt someone was in need of a shoulder to lean on...the truth is I wanted them to know I cared, plain and simple! Only now do I understand that I care too much for my own good, and when my intentions are not reciprocated it leaves me feeling like a fool. I know what you're thinking, well Lori you don't have your email flag up and so it appears you don't wish to be contacted...quite the contrary, I removed my email flag because I never was. By doing so I didn't have to deal with my disappointment, or so I thought. Yet here I am apologizing and at a loss for words. What saddens me most is that I wish I had someone to send this to and dump my feelings on. But as it would happen, when I do not hear back it only makes me fear putting myself out there all over again, and I end up withdrawing even more. I am sure I am completely misunderstood by many. Again I am sorry for my post. I just wanted to be your friend....(no, I do not aspire to be everyone's best friend) But the fact remains I wanted one or two so badly, (stay out of this Maureen)  and there lies my first and last mistake. Now I shall go lick my wounds and cry in my beer. If you'll have me, I'll be back another day. Until then, I'll miss your friendship in poetry. I am well aware that good byes have a familar ring around here, but time has way of healing, and I am in desperate need of just that. Thanks to all of you for your support and encouragement on my work. Believe me I tried my best. I hope this makes some kind of sense and that you will find it in your heart to understand, and forgive me for acting up this way. Fondly, Lori~ |
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skyshine 
since 2002-02-07
Posts 3058Beneath the northern stars |
email me! I go through this all the time. angelsonearth27@yahoo.com   ~ElizabethDreams last for so long, even after you're gone... |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Lori, Im not sure what all this is about..and I dont need to know your reasons..but I do know that anytime we are feeling this burdened or overwhelmed it is best to take a step back and take a break...breathe awhile and collect ourselves. "On-line" has become such a force in so many of our lives and it takes a balance to keep from getting too lost in the sea of emotions that come from poetry and long distance attachments. The things you are apologizing for is nothing any of us havent done or experienced in some way and take it from one who has been and often is still consumed... healing is as close as a long drive, a day in the sun...any respite you find that allows you to rejueviante your spirit. Take all the time you need... go to the beach ... take your pen  heart-hugs Bluesygirl  |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
And you tell me to stay out of it..hmmmm...but what are friends for Not sure what this is all about although I did read your poem. But like me, you swing, moods that is. So I will be here if you need me, and I will be reading you if you post. I was out tonight doing my "Monday" good deed with Greg and in the meantime getting some counseling myself...so let me know ok? hugs M |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Lori: trust me I know EXACTLY how you feel NO need to apologize I am where you are suzieh@adelphia.net Ready to take flight myself . . . if you leave who will sing to me? xxoo |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
 Check your email! If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Hey girl...when you get back, want to duet?  I've been known to dig up a few worms in my time.... |
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Jason Lyle Senior Member
since 2003-02-07
Posts 1438With my darkling |
Darling, I would have emailed you back.And still will.Dont be silly, I have loved you since the first poem. Jason |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
You're a sweetheart Bluesygirl ! Love your writing and you ! hugs, Chris |
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Ringo
since 2003-02-20
Posts 3684Saluting with misty eyes |
stormcenter@entermail.net MSN- RingoShort@hotmail.com AOL- RingoShort Yahoo- ringo18232@yahoo.com ICQ... whatever tyhe number is... it's on the site, here. Take your pick. I am on at bizzare hours, and have been on all night with a few people on here and many not on here. As littlewing has said, I also can relate. Before feeling sorry for yourself, or feeling the fool ,give me a holler, and I will straighten you out forthwith. Once in a dream, far beyond these castle walls... |
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Tim Senior Member
since 1999-06-08
Posts 1794 |
Sheesh, do I got it backwards, I've been crying in my wounds and licking my beer. Done seen a lot of ebb and flow over the last several years here in Passions and a lot of relationships built on some rather shaky foundations and obvious misunderstandings; along with some true friendships having been developed. Quite a few folks come and go. Just an observation from a dumb farm boy, but the folks who are the "good folk" are generally found out and the those who ain't (farm boys are allowed to say ain't) usually make a splash and then move on down the river. Not always easy to deal with misunderstandings and the jerks of the world, but it is generally worth it to stay around to root out a few of the acorns. As my grandpa always told me, even a blind hog finds an acorn every once in a while which may be why there are even a couple of good folk in here who will occasionally say howdy in passing to me. Isn't much doubt sometimes about my profession as I have a tendency to ramble, but I enjoy your poetry (even though I am a real jerk and don't reply like a good farm boy should to folk and don't do the email thing), just hang in there and take care. You sure as the heck don't have anything to apologize for, we all have our ups and downs. Some of us even lick our beer. (well, maybe only one of us). |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
~Saving Face~ Tell me, is it just me have you ever been there tumbling head first through the rapids losing yourself in the current rush of emotions bringing you down below sea level. Riding the storm, day after day looking for cover, slipping under a waterfall trying to catch your breath choking up on your words your head held under, drowned in defeat. Caught in a rip tide that swirls all around you filled with the salt that brings you to tears asking yourself why you ever let go and dared to believe in what you were seeing despite the thrill of it all. Fighting to come up for air and prayed that you could wiping away your despair have you ever been there despite the risk that you took. What matters most shouldn't matter that much to have and have not balancing the best of both worlds have you ever tried to save face or is it just me? Thank you for rsvping to my pity party everyone, but it's over already. Hugging you all, oh so tight! |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
 Cool!!! If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
Hey you Blues, email me, or get me on messenger or sometin, I'd love to talk, sing, cry, play the blues, etc... BC |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Me and my big mouth, this is killing me! I'll try and act like a grown up from here on out. Thanks for all your kind words everyone. |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Well, I don't know you other than reading your wonderful poetry...but honey, if you just wanna chat or un-load...e-mail me @ tnt6073@bellsouth.net I am on this thing all the time, and I am a stay at home mom, with no adult conversation for about 13 hours a day! Feel free to drop me a line sometime! Tima C |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Tell me, is it just me have you ever been there tumbling head first through the rapids losing yourself in the current rush of emotions bringing you down below sea level. ******************************************** Lori, I thought maybe I saw you on that life raft out there...the one I was clinging to desperately when I was sure I had only one more gulp of air left! Hang in there, bluesygal soul sister. Glad you stayed afloat. |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Lori...just now seeing this, my friend...email me..let's go to the beach..what say you? |
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EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
Ditto all the above! And now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand ~ Bernie Taupin |
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ThisDiamond Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353Michigan, USA |
Bluesy Girl... I am a late bloomer...have had a few things going on. I had read your post...and I had the feeling that something was up...didn't know until you explained. I don't reply often in my own posts. It isn't that I don't read and absorb good feed back from every person that reads me. I found that sometimes, it is a good thing to let people feel and take from my poetry what they see...not what I meant. That having been said, you have always been such an inspiration, and such a soul sister to write with. If you ever want to talk with me...please do not hesitate. There are many good people here, that I know feel the same. They have different names, different styles...but the same bright glow as I have always seen in you. TD |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Hey you what about moi here? I am french toast? Lori, here I go and you know I will. Sometmes we set such high expectations on people and when they don't live up to what we had planned, we feel rejected, disappointed, and hurt. If I were to write more it would be what Janet Marie has said here. If you reached out to someone and you felt rejected, ask them what it is you did that they are ignoring you as a friend, or just let it go. By the way, friends are high maintenance trust me, and require constant communication to keep it going, especially if your friend is a long distance one as well. You may want to sent aside one night a week and pick some people on the I want to be your friend list” to contact. Reading someone else's poetry is the best inter-action you are going to get in here I think, and we all have to remember that each person on here should have a life away from the computer so they are not there 24/7.. I've had a rejection hissy fit myself in here once, but I let it go, and let it be their stuff, not mine. So...here is a hug from the chopped liver in Canada that talks to you, and always will. Hope your vacation is stupendous too. [This message has been edited by Mysteria (08-07-2003 03:25 AM).] |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Well shoot and damn, this an old post, more like an old hissy fit that's history already. The sooner it falls off the page the better. I apologize for getting carried away...I should know better than to act impulsively........but at the same time I can't help the feelings that I have. I do appreciate you all for taking the time to leave your comments for me, and for understanding where I'm coming from, even if I'm not sure myself. Mysteria...will you stop with the chopped liver, I can't stomach the stuff!!! Hugs~ Hope you're all having a nice summer wherever you are on the map. Now then, where was I? |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
don't you hate it when people bump your little moments. they do it to me too  But you've got a lot of friends here now..right?insanity is not a crime |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
You know I think I bumped her with a hug rather than an nudge but just to make sure here's another. |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
Lori - no need to feel down and blue, blues one. Dang it, send me an email, I don't bite, and love to talk and chat. And would love to do a duety, you pick the subject, love, romance, humor, sad, holidays, flowers, trees, mountains, bet you can't write one that I can't write to... hehehe... BC [This message has been edited by Bill Charles (08-13-2003 11:43 PM).] |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Hey you, want to write something with me? I can do blues, you want blues, I got tons of blues. |
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Dark Angel Member Patricius
since 1999-08-04
Posts 10095 |
Hey Lori, I'd love to keep in contact with you....and omce I have completed my duets, I'd love to duet with you too. E me at darkangel_66@hotmail.com OK? or send me your addy and I'll do the talking LOL... Maree fate is not just |
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ThisDiamond Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353Michigan, USA |
It's been too long, and I saw your feedback on my poem last night. Have missed you, and hope all is well. Hope you come back and write with us soon. TD |
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Juju Member Elite
since 2003-12-29
Posts 3429In your dreams |
Dude I know how you feel. I would totally duet with you. In fact I am willing to duet with anyone who is willing to ask. -Juju -Juju |
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hunnie_girl
since 2006-06-18
Posts 2567Canada |
hey i acually missed the chance to read your poem and i can find it anywhere in the forums but i know where you are coming from i have been there myself too many times. if you want you can email me at cowgurlz@hotmail.com if you ever need to vent or something or even talk! hehe hunnie* A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war and a time for peace ~Ecclesiastes 3:8~ |
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