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BluesSerenade
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0 posted 06-23-2003 08:08 PM       View Profile for BluesSerenade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for BluesSerenade


I felt the need to say, I'm sorry about my recent post in the open forum, "Be Safe"  First off, it was not directed towards anyone in particular...my sensitive side is kicking in big time today, and yes I am hurting.  One reason being, that I see so many of you on here who appear to have formed a bond, be it in friendship, or perhaps something more...or less...dueting together, whatever the connection may be, which tells me several of you keep in touch regularly.  And that is a wonderful thing for those of you who do.  Over the years I have tried to reach out to those who I assumed felt the same way I do, who wanted a friend, and knew how to be one.  I have acted inappropriately on a few occasions, maybe the word gets around. ugh~  I have taken it upon myself to initiate contact when I felt someone was in need of a shoulder to lean on...the truth is I wanted them to know I cared, plain and simple!  Only now do I understand that I care too much for my own good, and when my intentions are not reciprocated it leaves me feeling like a fool.  I know what you're thinking, well Lori you don't have your email flag up and so it appears you don't wish to be contacted...quite the contrary, I removed my email flag because I never was.  By doing so I didn't have to deal with my disappointment, or so I thought.  Yet here I am apologizing and at a loss for words.  What saddens me most is that I wish I had someone to send this to and dump my feelings on.  But as it would happen, when I do not hear back it only makes me fear putting myself out there all over again, and I end up withdrawing even more.  I am sure I am completely misunderstood by many.  Again I am sorry for my post.  I just wanted to be your friend....(no, I do not aspire to be everyone's best friend) But the fact remains I wanted one or two so badly, (stay out of this Maureen)   and there lies my first and last mistake.   Now I shall go lick my wounds and cry in my beer.  If you'll have me, I'll be back another day.  Until then, I'll miss your friendship in poetry.  I am well aware that good byes have a familar ring around here, but time has way of healing, and I am in desperate need of just that.

Thanks to all of you for your support and encouragement on my work.  Believe me I tried my best.  I hope this makes some kind of sense and that you will find it in your heart to understand, and forgive me for acting up this way.  

Fondly, Lori~  
skyshine
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1 posted 06-23-2003 08:29 PM       View Profile for skyshine   Email skyshine   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit skyshine's Home Page   View IP for skyshine

email me! I go through this all the time. angelsonearth27@yahoo.com

~Elizabeth

Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...
~Jewel

Janet Marie
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2 posted 06-23-2003 08:56 PM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

Lori,

Im not sure what all this is about..and I dont need to know your reasons..but I do know that anytime we are feeling this burdened or overwhelmed it is best to take a step back and take a break...breathe awhile and collect ourselves. "On-line" has become such a force in so many of our lives and it takes a balance to keep from getting too lost in the sea of emotions that come from poetry and long distance attachments.

The things you are apologizing for is nothing any of us havent done or experienced
in some way and take it from one who has been and often is still consumed... healing is as close as a long drive, a day in the sun...any respite you find that allows you to rejueviante your spirit.
Take all the time you need...
go to the beach ... take your pen

heart-hugs Bluesygirl
nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines


3 posted 06-23-2003 09:58 PM       View Profile for nakdthoughts   Email nakdthoughts   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for nakdthoughts

And you tell me to stay out of it..hmmmm...but what are friends for

Not sure what this is all about although I did read your poem. But like me, you swing, moods that is.

So I will be here if you need me, and I will be reading you if you post. I was out tonight doing my "Monday" good deed with Greg and in the meantime getting some counseling myself...so let me know ok?
hugs
M
littlewing
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4 posted 06-24-2003 04:10 AM       View Profile for littlewing   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for littlewing

Lori:

trust me
I know EXACTLY how you feel
NO need to apologize
I am where you are
suzieh@adelphia.net

Ready to take flight myself . . .
if you leave
who will sing to me?
xxoo
Larry C
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5 posted 06-24-2003 09:05 AM       View Profile for Larry C   Email Larry C   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Larry C's Home Page   View IP for Larry C

Check your email!

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Sunshine
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6 posted 06-24-2003 09:52 AM       View Profile for Sunshine   Email Sunshine   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Sunshine's Home Page   View IP for Sunshine


Hey girl...when you get back, want to duet?



I've been known to dig up a few worms in my time....

Jason Lyle
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With my darkling


7 posted 06-24-2003 09:57 AM       View Profile for Jason Lyle   Email Jason Lyle   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Jason Lyle

Darling, I would have emailed you back.And still will.Dont be silly, I have loved you since the first poem.

Jason
Nightshade
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just out of reach


8 posted 06-24-2003 10:23 AM       View Profile for Nightshade   Email Nightshade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Nightshade's Home Page   View IP for Nightshade

You're a sweetheart Bluesygirl !
Love your writing and you !
hugs, Chris
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9 posted 06-24-2003 09:53 PM       View Profile for Ringo   Email Ringo   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Ringo

stormcenter@entermail.net

MSN- RingoShort@hotmail.com
AOL- RingoShort
Yahoo- ringo18232@yahoo.com
ICQ... whatever tyhe number is... it's on the site, here.

Take your pick. I am on at bizzare hours, and have been on all night with a few people on here and many not on here. As littlewing has said, I also can relate. Before feeling sorry for yourself, or feeling the fool ,give me a holler, and I will straighten you out forthwith.

Once in a dream, far beyond these castle walls...

Tim
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10 posted 06-24-2003 11:28 PM       View Profile for Tim   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Tim

Sheesh, do I got it backwards, I've been crying in my wounds and licking my beer.  Done seen a lot of ebb and flow over the last several years here in Passions and a lot of relationships built on some rather shaky foundations and obvious misunderstandings; along with some true friendships having been developed.
Quite a few folks come and go.  Just an observation from a dumb farm boy, but the folks who are the "good folk" are generally found out and the those who ain't (farm boys are allowed to say ain't) usually make a splash and then move on down the river. Not always easy to deal with misunderstandings and the jerks of the world, but it is generally worth it to stay around to root out a few of the acorns.  As my grandpa always told me, even a blind hog finds an acorn every once in a while which may be why there are even a couple of good folk in here who will occasionally say howdy in passing to me.  Isn't much doubt sometimes about my profession as I have a tendency to ramble, but I enjoy your poetry (even though I am a real jerk and don't reply like a good farm boy should to folk and don't do the email thing), just hang in there and take care.  You sure as the heck don't have anything to apologize for, we all have our ups and downs. Some of us even lick our beer.
(well, maybe only one of us).
BluesSerenade
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11 posted 06-24-2003 11:41 PM       View Profile for BluesSerenade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for BluesSerenade

~Saving Face~

Tell me, is it just me
have you ever been there
tumbling head first through the rapids
losing yourself in the current rush of emotions
bringing you down below sea level.

Riding the storm, day after day
looking for cover, slipping under a waterfall
trying to catch your breath
choking up on your words
your head held under, drowned in defeat.

Caught in a rip tide that swirls all around you
filled with the salt that brings you to tears
asking yourself why you ever let go
and dared to believe in what you were seeing
despite the thrill of it all.

Fighting to come up for air
and prayed that you could
wiping away your despair
have you ever been there
despite the risk that you took.

What matters most shouldn't matter that much
to have and have not
balancing the best of both worlds
have you ever tried to save face
or is it just me?  


Thank you for rsvping to my pity party everyone,
but it's over already.  Hugging you all, oh so tight!

Larry C
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12 posted 06-25-2003 12:32 AM       View Profile for Larry C   Email Larry C   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Larry C's Home Page   View IP for Larry C

Cool!!!

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Bill Charles
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highways, & byways, for now


13 posted 06-25-2003 11:57 PM       View Profile for Bill Charles   Email Bill Charles   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Bill Charles

Hey you Blues, email me, or get me on messenger or sometin, I'd love to talk, sing, cry, play the blues, etc...

BC
BluesSerenade
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14 posted 06-26-2003 11:45 AM       View Profile for BluesSerenade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for BluesSerenade

Me and my big mouth, this is killing me!
I'll try and act like a grown up from here on out.

Thanks for all your kind words everyone.
timothysangel1973
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Never close enough


15 posted 06-26-2003 10:43 PM       View Profile for timothysangel1973   Email timothysangel1973   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit timothysangel1973's Home Page   View IP for timothysangel1973

Well, I don't know you other than reading your wonderful poetry...but honey, if you just wanna chat or un-load...e-mail me @
tnt6073@bellsouth.net
I am on this thing all the time, and I am a stay at home mom, with no adult conversation for about 13 hours a day!

Feel free to drop me a line sometime!

Tima C
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Gaia


16 posted 06-26-2003 11:47 PM       View Profile for Midnitesun   Email Midnitesun   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Midnitesun

Tell me, is it just me
have you ever been there
tumbling head first through the rapids
losing yourself in the current rush of emotions
bringing you down below sea level.

********************************************
Lori, I thought maybe I saw you on that life raft out there...the one I was clinging to desperately when I was sure I had only one more gulp of air left!
Hang in there, bluesygal soul sister.
Glad you stayed afloat.
Martie
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17 posted 06-27-2003 05:15 PM       View Profile for Martie   Email Martie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Martie's Home Page   View IP for Martie

Lori...just now seeing this, my friend...email me..let's go to the beach..what say you?  
EagleOne
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Between a laugh and a tear...


18 posted 07-03-2003 05:31 AM       View Profile for EagleOne   Email EagleOne   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for EagleOne

Ditto all the above!

And now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand ~ Bernie Taupin

ThisDiamond
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19 posted 08-06-2003 08:00 PM       View Profile for ThisDiamond   Email ThisDiamond   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit ThisDiamond's Home Page   View IP for ThisDiamond

Bluesy Girl...
I am a late bloomer...have had a few things going on. I had read your post...and I had the feeling that something was up...didn't know until you explained.
I don't reply often in my own posts.  It isn't that I don't read and absorb good feed back from every person that reads me.  I found that sometimes, it is a good thing to let people feel and take from my poetry what they see...not what I meant.
That having been said, you have always been such an inspiration, and such a soul sister to write with.  If you ever want to talk with me...please do not hesitate.  There are many good people here, that I know feel the same.  They have different names, different styles...but the same bright glow as I have always seen in you.
TD
Mysteria
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20 posted 08-07-2003 03:20 AM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria

Hey you what about moi here?  I am french toast?

Lori, here I go and you know I will.  Sometmes we set such high expectations on people and when they don't live up to what we had planned, we feel rejected, disappointed, and hurt.  

If I were to write more it would be what Janet Marie has said here.  If you reached out to someone and you felt rejected, ask them what it is you did  that they are ignoring you as a friend, or just let it go.  By the way, friends are high maintenance trust me, and require constant communication to keep it going, especially if your friend is  a long distance one as well.  You may want to sent aside one night a week and pick some people on the
I want to be your friend list” to contact.  Reading someone else's poetry is the best inter-action you are going to get in here I think, and we all have to remember that each person on here should have a life away from the computer so they are not there 24/7..  

I've had a rejection hissy fit myself in here once, but I let it go, and let it be their stuff, not mine.  

So...here is a hug from the chopped liver in Canada that talks to you, and always will.  Hope your vacation is stupendous too.      



[This message has been edited by Mysteria (08-07-2003 03:25 AM).]

BluesSerenade
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21 posted 08-07-2003 11:14 AM       View Profile for BluesSerenade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for BluesSerenade

Well shoot and damn, this an old post, more like an old hissy fit that's history already.  The sooner it falls off the page the better.  I apologize for getting carried away...I should know better than to act impulsively........but at the same time I can't help the feelings that I have.  I do  appreciate you all for taking the time to leave your comments for me, and for understanding where I'm coming from, even if I'm not sure myself.  Mysteria...will you stop with the chopped liver, I can't stomach the stuff!!!   Hugs~

Hope you're all having a nice summer wherever you are on the map.

Now then, where was I?

  
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22 posted 08-07-2003 11:35 AM       View Profile for Wind   Email Wind   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Wind

don't you hate it when people bump your little moments. they do it to me too But you've got a lot of friends here now..right?

insanity is not a crime

Mysteria
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23 posted 08-08-2003 12:16 AM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria

You know I think I bumped her with a hug rather than an nudge but just to make sure here's another.   
Bill Charles
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24 posted 08-13-2003 11:41 PM       View Profile for Bill Charles   Email Bill Charles   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Bill Charles

Lori - no need to feel down and blue, blues one. Dang it, send me an email, I don't bite, and love to talk and chat. And would love to do a duety, you pick the subject, love, romance, humor, sad, holidays, flowers, trees, mountains, bet you can't write one that I can't write to... hehehe...

BC

[This message has been edited by Bill Charles (08-13-2003 11:43 PM).]

 
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