This post is long but it had to be and I am sorry ,
I am Beside Myself !
I am beside myself with such grief and desperation! I try and not yell out to the world of my problems for I believe there are so many more out there worth so much more attention, but I just can not get over this one! Twenty years ago when I and my sister were having babies and learning just what they meant to us, she decided to abandoned her daughter and so I tried to get legal custody of her (Lacey) but the fathers family had much more money at the time to spend on legal fees and even though I was the one who had taken care of her for the first five years of her life, they got to take her from me… So over the last fifteen years I have had to take their little tid bits of sharing in order to get to see her at all and the road has been so very long. But she is older now and I get to visit with her in fact she was living here with us for the last three months and with child, which delivered on the fifteenth of this month. I was in the delivery room and saw the miracle of God happen before me! And will cherish every moment. I took her and her boyfriend in because they had no where to live even thought I knew he was going to be a handful from the start!!! Well last Saturday night he decided to drink and get drunk! And then beat Lacey with a set of keys tied to a rope and then pull a knife on my two daughters! Well you know the story hours of Cops, paper work, court hearings all week and at least one conciliation is that he can not get out for about thirty days, but the other side meant that I had to move her and the baby to a safe house in order to protect them. My anger and emotions are running rapid and for the second time in my life I want to really hate someone! In the last two years I myself had to face death and this last December it all came to a head, but I am still here and fighting! But this takes the cake and what I feel hurts so bad and it takes everything just to breath. I guess I just had to tell someone (the world) just how ANGERY I am and hope time will heal this wound that gives me such pain in my heart.
Thank you, Cerenity