British Columbia, Canada
I don't really follow the news of celebrities much, but this morning on my browser I noticed that Luther Vandross had suffered a stroke. The record company is not announcing if he lost any motor skills, but we read between those lines, and know better. He and I are old friends it seems, as he was always in the background while I was with that "special someone." I felt so sad as he was only 52, but then it hit me, I was in that age range too, and how lucky I have been. This could have been me! I decided to stop or definitely change the pace I was working at today, simply take a deep breath and focus on what really was important. After reading this, I realized how hard I push myself sometime and for what exactly? I am a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, and obviously I was meant to read this on this particular day, so I sat to think about it, and why it got to me the way it did. I am a closet "pusher" and keep the extra work I do "hidden behind the scenes", therefore when people show up possibly they think a "Martha Stewart clone" lives here, who knows? When they make those "ooo's and ahhh's", I say the typical, "oh it was nothing really." I actually read somewhere only two days ago they don't like that anyway, and all these years I was doing it for them! They would much prefer you had not bothered, as it puts pressure on them and expectations they can't meet, so obviously you don't get invited, see? Usually I am so exhausted from making that perfect dinner or evening, I never enjoy it, how about you?
The funny part is I quit work for good because of stress. I decided to adjust my life style to live on less, as after all it was only "stuff", and I didn't need "stuff". Here I am, just replacing work stress, with "fill the time stress", so I am going to be really busy next week throwing this new found stuff into the round file, and creating more space to live, and love my family.
Well today was a reality check for me, as I think I have been darn lucky so far. Sure diet has a lot to do with it, but living over 50 years is a gift these days, due to our foods, and environment, and I am about to start enjoying my gift a bit more. Each and every day is a true gift, so here's to not cluttering it up with "stuff", and let's just live! You know I had a wise Gramma, who said when I asked her if she was afraid, as she was dying, "Honey, only those who are afraid to live, are afraid of dying,", and I guess I just forgot that. So, if you are in this age range, are you into doing a reality check? Got your priorities straight? Just checking, and a very Happy Easter, or Passover to you and your family. Perhaps you won't mind saying a tiny prayer for Luther on Sunday?
[This message has been edited by Mysteria (04-19-2003 03:40 PM).]