British Columbia, Canada
Lisann, there is no one that can explain and the only way things get changed is reform, and fighting the system, and that takes time, power and lots of guts to to do. I won't go into my story, but I know your "feeling" which is identical to mine, and eventually we just learn somehow to know it was not our fault, and put the anger in a place it is managable. Is what happened or the consequence fair? No way! but life is like that sometimes. My wish for you is this, that in taling about it and sharing your story with others, they can get to that "raw gut" sickness that lives there, and we can all purge a lot of other people's sickness and be healthy. Here's to your health and I truly mean that! Big hugs to you, as I know this pain very well.