Lost in thought
*sigh* ok, I've got this stupid medical thing goin on, and its been a long time, and doctors don't know whats wrong.
But its hurts everytime I move, and I can't blink or move a joint without this wrenching pain. And I'm only fifteen. My dad's sick of me missing school from it all, 'cause some days a migraine keeps me home puking. And he keeps telling me to do better. I'm doing my absolute best.
And I hate it.. it hurts so so much to move or open my eyes, the light kills.
And I'm just sick of it and un-understanding words and looks. And I want it all to go away and I want to feel better
I keep hope... I know I can be healed. But .. it hurts so much. And some things are too easy
I just needed to vent *sigh*
And did I mention the person I loved the most, like a mom, but better is gone and I miss her so much and... her hugs could at least help for awhile.
Anyway this probably seems really selfish doesn't it? ..thing is, I want to be there for others, but its so hard in the pain.. and yea I know, make it through so I can relate with others.. but can I really make it through another MINUTE of this ....
- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)
[This message has been edited by GG (01-19-2003 05:44 AM).]