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serenity blaze
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0 posted 12-25-2002 02:19 AM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

miss my Dad so very much tonight that if I could I would rip my heart out of my chest and throw it against the wall.

The only thing that hurts worse than this is knowing my mother misses him more...

I should go to bed.

I'm sorry good poet people, just something that has been on my mind.

sigh. Sorry people.
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1 posted 12-25-2002 02:41 AM       View Profile for Krawdad   Email Krawdad   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Krawdad

No apology necessary, k
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I understand.
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i can only imagine, so from me as well
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4 posted 12-25-2002 09:13 AM       View Profile for Balladeer   Email Balladeer   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Balladeer's Home Page   View IP for Balladeer

Holidays do that, Karen, bring back all the good memories and nostalgia that goes with them. No need for apologies, sweet lady. It would be stranger if you DIDN'T feel those things. You are blessed to have had a father that invokes those emotions in you...best of holidays, serene one.
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I understand too.
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6 posted 12-25-2002 10:59 AM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

Thanks all...just another bad moment I guess.

I've been thinking about this and it's more than missing my Dad . The kids are kids and not babies anymore--so I miss the noise and the toys and the magic of seeing things "brand new". I even miss HIS father over here picking lint off of my living room floor on Christmas morning...grin. And? I suppose there's a little girl in me that misses Santa Claus too. And the mom in me misses BEING Santa. (I know I am nuts...shaking my head.)

Now I think I'll go play a video game. The sound of all this clicking in this house is maddening.

Merry Christmas. Happy Holidays.

(It's about 10 a.m. here and I'm counting.)
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Holidays are hardship to some. It's a dutiful daughter who thinks of her departed Daddy on this occasion. Merry Christmas.
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Don't apologise for what you feel and for who and what you miss, okay?  
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Holidays are the emotional roller-coaster of the soul.  I've been up and down them all week.  Sometimes, I just have to let them take me for the ride that is, truly, so well deserved.  If we bottled these feelings up, Karen, we'd be sorry individuals indeed.  Thank you for sharing the love of your father with us...

It makes me feel like I'm not alone.

Merry Christmas, my dear...
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I'm there too, my friend...
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I can only imagine how you feel.  I wish so much for your dad to be there with you.
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Thinking of you Hon, great big hugs
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I understand more than once or twice...
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I understand Karen. This was my first Christmas without Dad althought the 5th without Mom. I does get a little easier eventually but never really goes away entirely.
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Hey all. Another thank you from me to you...and I seem to have attracted the holiday blues crowd this year.

I should explain that I spent xmas eve with a friend that also recently lost her father to lung cancer and we had quite a sob fest together. Then I talked to my mom, who pointed something out to me that I hadn't considered. She said that the living trudge on in a kind of survivor's guilt. She told me that enjoying life is not a betrayal to those we love who are no longer with us in the physical. She pointed out further that my own father had survived most of his family and enjoyed life until the pain made his life intolerable. Then she made me laugh by saying that if my Dad were here, he would sternly tell me to "cut this out now" and get on with enjoying. She's right. (She's a pretty smart lady too, did I ever mention that?)

Oh. Did I mention that my Christmas cactus bloomed? On Christmas morning too. Not a big deal to some, and a mere coincidence to most I suppose, but to me it was like my Dad saying, "hey"--as he was an avid gardener, and his flowers ALWAYS bloomed.

Peace and hugs all.

(and yep, "GAWD, I love you people.")

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I understand those feelings very well.  Listen to your mom, she's right.
 
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