Sweet And Sassy
I used to date this guy named George since about August, and about a month ago I decided I didn't want to see him anymore because his age was really bothering me. (He just turned 25 this year, and i'm 17) Well anyways, while me and him were together him and my sister were friends too. Well after I decided I didn't want to see him anymore he started calling and talking to my sister. Then, he asked my sister out. WHAT A JERK! Just because I said I did not want to be with him anymore because I thought he was to old for me, didn't mean I said oh well my sister's older than me hook up with her. And now there going out. It really bothers me, and upsets me. Because I had feelings for him at one time and we were together since august till the end of October. Thats like 3 months right there. And my sister asked me how i felt about it and I'll feel bad if I tell her how I really feel, I mean because I want her to be happy and I don't want people to think I'm selfish or anything. Because I feel that if I tell her it hurts me to see them two together and kiss ( like we use to). She'll just think i'm selfish. And all I care about is myself. Cause really I don't. I mean no one really understands how I feel. Then my cousin (he's like one of my best friends) he said I act jealous. Because she's with him now. I mean I'm not, at least I don't think I am, but one thing ever since they started going out we have not got along at all, were always fighting. Usually we get along pretty good. I've cryed over this to one of my friends alot because of this situation, I mean I just don't know how to deal with all this. I was on the honor roll and now I have like D's .. and i'm always like depressed. I just really do not know how to deal with this at all. It's so werid to see them two together and hug and see them kiss right in front of my face. I leave because I can't watch it. It's like she betrayed me or something. I don't know how to explain it. But do you think i'm jealous or selfish for feeling this way?
ah, I just don't know what to think or feel or say anymore. It's like i'm lost in my own little world all the time now. It's like I lost one of my really good friends, because I can't even talk to my sister like I use to anymore. I am so depressed lately.
Ok well I just had to let that out .. I never really told any of my friends why I cry alot now, most of them don't even know. Just my cousin, because I trust him and I don't think, he'll think i'm stupid for it.
Whoever reads this ... Thanks.
Cheater's - There not worth your time and most of all not your tears.
[This message has been edited by Alexia (12-03-2002 10:16 PM).]