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EagleOne
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Between a laugh and a tear...

0 posted 2002-10-17 09:08 PM



I’ve had enough!

I just can’t take it anymore. Why do people behave this way, so vindictive, so hurtful, so focused on covering their own faults that they seek to cause pain and distress to others. It’s not that hard to simply say I mad a mistake, I was wrong, I’m sorry, let’s move on. I’m sick and tired of all the petty little mind games, the deception, and I don’t want to play any more! I look at what is happening around myself and when I look at the world I see the much the same thing, just on a much larger scale. Where will it stop; must we destroy ourselves to satisfy our own trifling egos.

Surely everyone must be able to see what is happening. And what of the apathy that seems to allow this relentless march to self-destruction to continue. I am not immune, I probably more so than many others have made mistakes, I have certainly caused pain to others, sometimes knowingly so, I have been guilty of neglect, and the apathy is fast overtaking me. Every day my heart hardens a little more, the emptiness and hopelessness grow, the doubts and questions return, and I search for a reason to simply get out of bed. I’m so empty inside these days I can scarcely put pen to paper.

How hard can it be to just TRY and do the right thing?

Think for a moment how different we would be, how different the world would be, if we all just stopped, had a long hard look around, and inside us, and just tried. Surely it would be a defining point in our evolution as a species! Well I guess can dream, can’t I?

I’ll climb down off the soapbox now before someone kicks me off.  These comments are not directed at any individual or group, well certainly not anyone from Passions , I’m just going through a difficult time and needed to vent for a while, thanks!

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Poet deVine
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1 posted 2002-10-17 09:32 PM


Vent away! Anytime, just get it out..it's good for you.

I agree with most of what you say - I see it every day. It's so hard to keep our spirits up - to live the way we think we should when so many people around us are this way. I think so many people don't want to take responsiblity for their actions - that's why it's hard for them to confess to a mistake. Perhaps they were reprimanded severely at one time for a mistake and they don't want to go through that experience again. Or maybe they're just oblivious to what they do.

Apathy is another issue. It can be caused from being told time and again that 'you can't do that - you can't have that'..after awhile, we are trained not to expect it or care or want it...apathy. (for example for 3 years we've been told we're going to be moved to a new area - moved together to increase our team environment. After 2 years, we began to be skeptical when anyone said 'when we move'. Now? In 3 weeks we're going to move - and I'm sorry but I'll believe it when I see it)

The world would be such a better place if we could change people to care - to try - to understand - to accept - to love each other more.

That's why my favorite song is 'Imagine' by John Lennon. We can hope. We can dream. We can live by example.

Good post sir!

Larry C
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2 posted 2002-10-17 10:09 PM


Eddie,
Even in Australia, eh? Well dang it. I suppose there would be reason to give up except for people like you! So now today I find I have one more reason to be hopeful. And I certainly can relate to all that you say. It does get weary. Nice to have a sane place to vent. Of course there isn't one person here like you describe...

Peace and courage to you, alwayss.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

majnu
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3 posted 2002-10-18 11:02 PM


it sucks i know, but keep hope.

remember how you were are as a species - mere children. also, despite how things might look in a shortsighted view, think of how rapidly things have changed.

it took civilization 3776 years to achieve a TRUE democracy. 175 years later we have a World Organization that could some day grow to a governing body. 50 years ago we set a precedent by truly declaring all men equal.

physics is only a century or 2 (with continued funding) from a final theory. we can smell it!

it does keep on getting better.

people who say social evolution does not exist ignore all of human history. we are getting kinder, more compassionate, more reasonable, and more conscious of our fellow humans every day.

yeah a person or a few persons can be a PIA's, but they don't matter. YOU and your SELF matter - take care of that first.

Irie
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since 1999-12-01
Posts 1493
Washington State
4 posted 2002-10-22 01:11 PM


I hear ya'!

Hugs

~Sheri

"Don't wait for your ship to come in ...
Swim out to it"

Kielo
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since 2002-02-11
Posts 1109

5 posted 2002-10-22 01:24 PM


PdV, I agree that apathy is a whole other issue, but I think the scenario you described is skepticism. I've always thought apathy was simply lack of opinion, absolute uncaring. I used to be apathetic, or so I'm told. I didn't notice. I didn't care, either. Apathy, as I see it, is difficult because the person being apathetic could not care less what anyone else thinks. They are content to be apathetic, and not care.

I do realise that I could be horribly wrong on this, and it wouldn't surprise me. That's just my own definition.

Oh, and yes, I agree. We'll live. We always do.

Kielo

dgvarner
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High Springs, Florida
6 posted 2002-10-27 09:21 AM


good to vent my good man...   i believe all our hearts harden little by little as we age...then it seems, most of us, will soften again as we grow into elderly folks...funny how that middle bit becomes sort of numb and uncaring for a while.....   

i havent heard from you in quite some time..i think about you..wish you well my friend..always wishing you well...

big hugs, g

"dont cry because its over, smile because it happened...!"  -unknown

Wind
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7 posted 2002-10-27 10:30 AM


I know exactly how you feel! There is a girl Iknow, who is really pretty, and everyone likes her but they can't see that she is a complete fake. And they go on and on about how great she is and she is really mean. I don't know why, but she seems to get pleasure out of makeing other people cry or by hurting their feelings. And she gets all of this special treatment and she doesn't deserve it at all! People should be judged by their insides. Right?
ESP
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since 2000-01-25
Posts 2556
Floating gently on a cloud....
8 posted 2002-11-12 11:12 PM


Whats inside counts the most for sure.
This post reflects exactly what I feel about the world today and I couldnt have said it better if I had tried!!! I touch on it in my poem, Truth chose me, in the Corner Pub tho...hint hint hint anyone who wants to take a look....
But yeah, all I can say is, 'With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. Desiderata' (Max Ehrmann of course!!)
Luv, Liz xx

Kethry
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since 2000-07-29
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Victoria Australia
9 posted 2002-11-13 07:56 AM


Rant away, it shows you are not apathetic, despite what you say. As for getting out of bed, if you don't need to ...don't, but summer is coming and with it 40 degree heat, if you can stay in bed then, you're a better man than I am Gunga Din.

*HuGS. If you need a hand, an ear or whatever, I have lots of spare parts and you know where I am.
Keth

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind.  Unknown



Midnitesun
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Gaia
10 posted 2002-11-13 12:18 PM


Warm peaceful thoughts to you. It is really hard some days to get up and smile at the sun, wondering if it will still be there for us, or if we will extinguish it and the human race. Pettiness and greed do seem to rule much of the world. I find I have to look past that view, and seek out the kindness and gentleness that does exist. I find it regularly, at Pips.
Thank you for staying aloft.  

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