I have these issues, and right now I'm crying, because I'm stupid, because I have stupid issues. As a kid i was a loser. Everyone knew me, and they all avoided me, or went out of their way to ruin my life. As a result, I am now extremely loyal. Unfortunately, I expect the same loyalty in return, even though that isn't fair. I hate it. I really do. I want to be the only one... I don't care who's... I just want to be the only one who matters to someone.
It's really, really hard to go through life with a need like that, and to never have it fulfilled. It's not fair for me to expect it to be fulfilled by anyone, so I try not to, but somehow I end up hurt anyway, no matter how much I try to avoid it. I can't stand it. I really hate it.
Anyway, done complaining now. Everyone can ignore me.