Today, I will start places my feelings in here as often as possible. The deal with guys these days are difficult but I am trying to be as patient as possible. I'm waiting for Thomas to figure out of he is going to ask me out or what...I've waited 3 years for this to FINALLY happen. I forced myself to get over him (or so I thought) but when he came back around I knew I still loved him as much as I had before. I wont let Josh stand in the way this time and Thomas better not let him stand in the way either.
I went to Conger Park today fairly early. I took my brothers there and met Sam, James and his sister, and Dalton there. We stayed for like 5 hours just hanging out and playing tennis. We got a little crazy though and decided to roll James with toilet paper. He cares about me a lot but I feel I have terribly hurt him, and that was NEVER my intention. I hurt Dalton too, but I can't make myself love someone. I know who I want to be with, I just have to wait...and that I will do until he gives me an answer.
The weather has been divine. I got a pretty good tan today at the park and I had a great time.
Graduation is Friday. I AM looking forward to it but I'm afraid of falling or whatever when I go up on stage...and honestly, I dont want to go see half those people again. Most are so very cold to people and they act stuck up. I'll never understand that.
I have to remember to pray for all my friends because we have all been pretty down lately.
I haven't been able to make it to the rodeo's lately! I miss it a lot..but I've been so busy. Well, I think I have spouted enough. Adios*
Don't hold back the words you really mean.