Member Rara Avis
well, i found a new crowd but it's still lonely over there even though it's not as crowded... lol... anyway, i don't ever see you on icq any more even though i decided to be visible to more than one person at a time....lol... used to be i couldn't handle several conversations at once, so i'd focus on one, but then i decided i was lonely, so i made myself visible but nobody says hello any more.. *sob*, oh well, but all this to say if you're lonely there's a lot of that going around and if you want, you could say hi and we could be lonely in a crowd of two or something or other.... i have no clue what i'm trying to say but i wrote a pome once that started like this, "the thing about lonliness is it just doesn't care", sad but true, and i'm rambling here, aren't i? i guess just knowing that other people have the same feelings as me makes me feel like i'm not so alone, y'know? but not being alone has nothing to do with not being lonely because they're totally different things so instead of continuing this nonsense writing because i'm clearly coming to no conclusions at all, i'll just leave you alone for a while and if you ever want to be lonely with me, gimme a call or i'll call you or just do the cyber thing or hell, come on over to virginia and i'll pour you a glass of my whine and then you'll realize that there's someone out there, being me, who oftentimes complains too much about nothing because sometimes it feels like all there is is nothing, y'know? a lot of somethings adding up to nothing, or something or other but then again, what's wrong with that? y'know? it's better to have a lot of somethings adding up to nothings then a lot of nothings adding up to nothing because if you had that, you'd be really really really bored, but as it is, with all the somethings that equal nothing, at least it's really confusing to figure out, y'know what i mean? so that makes it sort of exciting in a drab boring way.... the road to nothing can be something else and the crowded room with all the people who have nothing to say or who have something to say about nothing can make you feel a sorta kinship in the scope of a special kind of nothingness.... you dig? *wink*, so kiddo, here's the scoop, i'm gonna stop typing now because all of this means nothing and it's making me very lonely typing it all out so maybe i'll write a pome or something but i haven't been able to do that very much or very well lately so maybe i won't, and i'll just sit here and listen to all this wonderful music i have which is what i do every day to fill the empty lonely void of it all but it really does start to get boring and accentuate the loneliness after a while, especially all those really romantic love songs which put chills up my spine and bring tears to my eyes and so, what the heck, i think i'll have a glass of whine now and call it a frigging day because life is short and i'm getting tired of saying nothing.
take care, my distant friend. i miss you much, harpo...........i hope with all the hardships and losses lately, you can move on proud that you dealt with everything so beautifully and knowing that you have so many friends who care deeply for you and that you aren't lonely for long and i truly hope you haven't bothered to read all this gibberish because i'm not sure it would do you any good and i'm hoping it hasn't made things worse....if it means anything, i meant well.....