I know it may sound silly, especially when you're burried in the depths of depression - but I try to count my blessings... If that doen't work, i.e. there's nothing I can see good in my life, then I look around at the many other people out there who have it worse than I do (There's plenty of 'em out there, too). Somehow doing that almost always makes me feel like somehow I'm being selfish.
I know well what it feels like to have everyone in the world you care for seemed fated for an ill-timed death. I know what it feels like to think a higher power has it in for you - like life is just some kind of futile quest you did not ask to be part of. I, myself, have chosen not ot play for the better part of mine...
But that is not the answer, nor is that the way to approach your feelings. We, (human beings), are here for one purpose - to touch each other. I know your writings have touched a great many of us here at Passions - I know someone as caring as you must have touched a great many others in your personal life as well.
I guess what I'm saying is "just don't give up" o.k. Try to think on the positives in life - they are there if you will let them be.
[This message has been edited by Michael (edited 06-05-2001).]