No, you're not crazy, you are just in turmoil, as many of us are and sometimes we don't know what to do. Writing helps and even some would try to destroy that, don't allow it.....
take your sanctuary in your mind and your words. Without that we have little left to cling to. Sometimes the only thing you can do is utter something but you know what?
It comes from your soul. Keep that alive and you will be alive and even when we do die the soul lives.
No one can take my last words from me nor the ones I speak or write now. Some have tried, circumstances have tried but I won't allow it and why not?
Because someone like you may need to hear that their being alive matters and while you are, make us hear what you have to say and
you may touch someone else.
You matter. Live for now.,
read my quote after my signature, I believe it with all of my heart. More so today than I have ever believed anything in my entire life.
Don't worry about death and if you do envision it? Write about it....it's a healing, an outlet and don't allow anyone to rob you of it. Hold onto it for dear life.
Best to you
Every man dies.
Not every man truly lives.