I'm a wanderer, a nomad...I do
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. It's totally understandable, and hardest around the holidays. Just know that your father IS around you, he see's you and hears you. And he will be with you, in spirit, during the holidays and every other day. I know it won't make it easier, but it's at least good to know that they're still around, even if you can't see them. I'm sure your father was a wonderful man, and that he is very proud of you. He'll never be out of your life, hon. He may not be there physically, but he WILL be there, nonetheless. Many blessings this holiday season.
"It was my love that did us both to death. " -Sylvia Plath