Member Rara Avis
The Shores of Alone
Lots of you know my story, but even if you don't, this is my problem now. I feel so lonely, and I feel despair of it ever ending. At first, I could write and write about the pain, and got lots of wonderful support from everyone here at the forums. Then as time passed, I ran out of words to say how bad I feel, and probably out of people that want to hear about it.
I feel, for many reasons, that I will not have another love in my life, and I don't want that to be true. Because I have always lived for love. I don't know what to do with this fear, that I could go the rest of my life like this, in a wasteland, emotionally destitute. Its not that I feel undeserving of love, or that I am unwilling to try, or be open to it. It just feels hopeless. And I can't find the spark of the dream anymore.
How do you find a new dream, and make yourself believe in it?