Member Rara Avis
It sounds like its time to start taking resposibility for your actions and thoughts. If you feel you like him, but don't want the relationship, you need to remind yourself about that and talk to him about it. We all need attention, but really, isn't using others solely for that purpose then hurting them selfish? Put the other hat on for a while. How would you feel if someone done the things to you that you say you do right now. Would it feel good for you to give all your special attention to someone only to have them discard you in the end because of cowardice of a relationship or need for more than one attention giver? Am I making sense? I hope so. I'll check this later to see if there is anything else I can add. Note here: I'm not questioning or attacking your character. I'm only going by what you have said, and offering my honest opinion.
My name isn't Baby, and I don't want to cyber.