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Well.... I will start off by saying that I am pro-choice. I don't feel that others should make such a critical decision for another person- or even a complete stranger. But I have had one abortion when I was 17... under extreme circumstances. The father was abusive and had threatened to beat my child until it became brain damaged if I didn't abort it. I had a back-alley abortion done, and believe me, I have regreted it ever since.
Now, just recently, at 20 years old, I had the same problem again. I was with a great guy, whom I thought I would eventually marry, and ended up getting pregnant. He broke up with me shortly afterwards, and told me to get an abortion... literally fought with me over it. I thought it wouldn't be a big deal... I had numbed myself emotionally so much because of the last one I had, that I thought that it wouldn't be that big of a deal. So over the next few weeks, I went on not thinking too much about it. But then I DID start thinking about it, and about the fact that I had a life... a HUMAN life...growing inside of me. Now, I must let you know that because of my last abortion, I have been told by many doctors that I would only have a %2 chance of ever concieving again (boy were they wrong!). So I began to debate with myself over it. "Is this my last chance...EVER?" "Is my higher power PUSHING me to have this child?" "Will I ruin some type of destiny for myself or this child if I abort it?" ... The day of the appointment, the father-to-be took me to the doctor, and sat in the waiting room while I went to do it...(It was the LEAST he could do he said... didn't even offer to pay for it). The doctor answered some questions, and then he did an ultra sound. I did not have to look at it. But something pushed me to ask to see it. So he showed me, and I started crying.
Needless to say I am now 5 1/2 months pregnant, single, and extremely happy with my decision. Although the father is in no way involved, I know I can raise this child with as much as it needs and more! I am still very pro-choice, but I DO NOT recomend abortion. And I myself will not get another one.
Sorry this was so long, kind of just felt like telling the whole story.
"It was my love that did us both to death. " -Sylvia Plath
[This message has been edited by SorrowsMystress (edited 09-09-2000).]