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One Who Understands
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since 2000-01-20
Posts 251
Cedar Rapids, Iowa

0 posted 2000-01-20 01:20 AM


Tears from Nobody

  As I close my eyes, and flip off the light,
I wish you could be in my arms tonight.
I'd hold you close, close to my heart,
I'd never let go, we would never part.
My heart aches, and my eyes fill with tears.
As I think back on all those years.
All the pain I've been through.
All the pain that you never knew.
Pain that will never exist to you.
I can't hold it in, they just keep flowing.
You'll never know what love I have for you.
All the love, I'll never stop showing.
The tears sting, as they flow down my cheek.
I pray to God, only to remain weak.
I ask him why must it hurt so much.
And in my dreams he tells me,
"Son, because you love her such."
I'm so alone, I have nowhere to go,
I don't know what to do.
When I close my eyes, there you are.
God, if only you knew.
How much I want to be with you.
Admiring your smile.
More perfect than paradise, where the ocean meets the sand.
Your beautiful eyes match the sky,
So magnificent, so grand.
Your soft golden hair,
More gorgeous than the evening sunset.
You amazed me beyond my imagination,
On that wonderful day our hearts met.
Princess, please don't leave me.
My heart may never mend.
If you say no,
The pain will never end.

Please let me know if you understand


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Trevor
Senior Member
since 1999-08-12
Posts 700
Canada
1 posted 2000-01-20 03:45 AM


I understand completely, went through a similar thing a while back.....gets easier as the days go on and you become more and more glad you didn't and that you didn't succeed in doing it....or at least I did. We all must come to grips with the fact that the world, unfortunately, will never be completely the way we want nor will our lives. The trick is to try and do something with your life....I'm not talking about getting a hundred thousand dollar job and three houses but really do something with your life...ya know what I mean.... go out and change the world for the better. Don't let sorrow use you but instead use sorrow as a guide dog to fix things. Well that's just my little ol opinion.... but ultimately in situations like this only you can make yourself feel better. The choice will always be yours and no one can actually stop you but remember you do have choices...probably a lot more of them then you realize too. Try sleeping on it and if that doesn't work try sleeping on it again...and again...and again...until it does make sense Anyways I hope you feel better and hope to read your words in the future. Take care,
Trevor

One Who Understands
Member
since 2000-01-20
Posts 251
Cedar Rapids, Iowa
2 posted 2000-01-20 05:07 PM


Thanks Trev...It comforts me to know that someone understands what I am going through.  But yet it seems that no matter how many nights I cry myself to sleep, I don't think this feeling will completely pass, until that hole inside me is filled.  I really appreciate your words of encouragement, and you are abasolutely right.  To do good in the world, is truly the way to make yourself feel good...
THANX AGAIN

Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
3 posted 2000-01-21 06:02 PM


I agree with Trevor here, you must keep living your life, whether she returns or not.
Try something new, that you've always been interested in. Write poetry.  Get into ICQ and make new friends that way.  A lonely heart is resigned to pain, change it.
(HUGS) for understand how you feel, it will get better eventually I promise  

 Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely.
~Isis~
(Sovereign of the Spirit)


Trevor
Senior Member
since 1999-08-12
Posts 700
Canada
4 posted 2000-01-21 11:57 PM


No problem on the words of encouragement. It's good that you can cry about it, wish I had been able to do that when I was going through a couple of rough moments, probably would have helped a lot. It does get better and easier to deal with the "empty" feeling though I don't know if one ever forgets it completely, which is good because that means no matter what you'll always remember you were in love at least once and what love felt like. I'm sure there are some people who have gone through their entire life without ever finding love or being open enough to really enjoy it....in fact I think I know a few of those people and can't think of a worse fate then never being in love. What's that saying, "It's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all." Anyways, hope you sleep a little easier in knowing that a large portion of people that you meet have had some sort of heartbreak in their life and know what you're going through,
take care,
Trevor

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