Perhaps you shouldn't search for a set of beliefs. Consider changing with what is instead of trying to cram it all into a system or pattern. Live in the moment or in the now if the moment decrees it or plan for the future if the situation begs for it. Believe in a god today, then excommunicate yourself tomorrow then believe in another god next year if you wish. You don't have to believe in something for life. Change with yourself, realize that you will forever change if you let yourself and don't let a code of beliefs prevent you from growing or coming to terms with your existence. Continue to question and that which can not be questioned further keep as a reminder of what might be true. Nothing worse then seeing someone become something they are not because they were told to do so....cause there isn't any rules to life other then the ones you condemn yourself to and there might not be any answers other than the ones invented. Don't worry about death until your dead because it will find you soon enough (though there is nothing wrong with pondering the subject or preventing it...just don't stress yourself out about it). Explore the other ways of spirituality...all of them and don't worry about brimstone and ashes, you seem like a decent person, most people are, and if God won't let ya in cause you were curious about why the majority of the world worships gods other than the Christian one, then perhaps Heaven isn't all its cracked up to be. Personally I don't want to go to a heaven that excludes the Hindus or Jews or Muslims or Buddhists...etc. So if it's a corperate club that God built behind Pearly Gates...count me out and I raise the "bird" in His direction....see, no lightening, no thunder....we are free to think as we choose...say what we want...feel as we see fit....live how we want(but still take heed of the societal repercussions of evil actions...live by the sword-die by the sword type of stuff). Don't worry about not having faith in God....the Pope drives in a bullet proof vehicle (how much faith does he have? and he heads the Catholic church). For what it is worth I believe in the very real possibility of a higher power and if we were created in its image then why wouldn't it understand our thoughts and actions and if it isn't a kind god like we hoped it would be then I say F*** it! Let someone else worship it. It's time the human race got past the fact that faith does not clean the skies nor does it feed you when you're hungry. Faith doesn't stop people from shooting sprees nor does it help a football team win a game. We are gods, here and now and we have all the tools necessary to make life the way we want it. Anyways, I'm not trying to tell ya how to live your life, only you can decide that, but I'm trying to tell you that you do have choices and you shouldn't feel guilty that perhaps what you want in life doesn't match what you have been told you should want in life. As long as you don't try and harm people then you will always find those who will stand with you on your journey through life....wherever that journey takes you. Like I said before, only you can live your life and ultimately it is you who has to live with yourself but don't be afraid to go against the grain, there is life outside what people present you with as being "normal", cause there really isn't a "normal". Hope maybe a few of my ideas have helped...if not my apologies if I've made your train of thought more distressing.....my brother is going through a very similar thing right now as well as I did years ago and I can empathise with your plight. Take care,
I respect your beliefs and everyone elses but I must add my two cents re: your comments.
"Cause any other worship other than God is idol worship! The Bible states He is creator of all things and when we die, our spirit returns to God who gave it. Eccl. 12:7"
But I first read somewhere else in a book much older then the bible that if I worship something other then that god then I will go to their Hell. What should I do? Both Hells were written in a book so they both must be true.
I hardly think now is the time to tell someone he/she (sorry Bojopy...don't know your gender) is sinning (and therefore paving a path to Hell) because they are curious about other religious beliefs. More people do and have worshipped religions other than Christianity. This person is at a very confused state of mind and to tell them not to think of things other than what the Bible says could be very detremental to his/her growth. If God is all knowing, all seeing and a compassionate and benevolant creature then I'm sure God will forgive this person if he/she wanders off the beaten path for a few years and explores the other sides to life. If Christianity is the "pure" way than I don't see how Bojopy won't eventually end up back in the loving arms of Christianity.
"We are here to either love God, or follow Satan."
Well I'm not here for either, I'm here for myself and the rest of this planet. I'm here to smoke cigarettes, drink beer, get laid, write a few unmemorable poems and then I think I'll die and be judged not on my religious beliefs but on my actions. Whether or not God and Satan want to come along for the ride is their choice and not mine. Now if the bible says we should help those in need then shouldn't we perhaps be trying to lend a loving and caring hand to Satan. I mean who could be in more pain and anguish then the forever damned Prince of Evil? No wonder he's so angry, cast aside for eternity. So let me be the first one to say "Satan I forgive you. I forgive you for starving the African nations and for creating Hitler. Satan I forgive you for cancer and leprosy and for the whole tempting of Adam and Eve and making us suffer without a Garden of Eden. I forgive you for creating homosexuality, different religions, light beer and seductive latex clothing. I want to give you a great big hug Satan and tell ya you can stop being so damn angry because I forgive you....we all do."
What point am I driving at with all this malarky? Well I'm guess in my odd way I'm trying to say that maybe it's a little harsh of you to try and pigeon hold Bojopy into thinking that he/she doesn't have a choice in what he/she can believe in and that it might not be a good idea to tell someone that they will be worshipping evil if they don't follow the same path that you do....cause lets face it....all religions and set systems of belief are flawed. Anything that we create to soundly define an existence that we know so little about can not be anything else but flawed. How can one be expected to define a house they have never been to? Or give an answer to question they haven't even been asked? Anyways I'm not trying to offend you, I honestly do respect your religious beliefs, I do think Christianity has some good advice somewhere in that book of theirs but I did feel compelled to speak out when it seems that you are trying mild scare tactics, (or God was), implying that a person shouldn't question what someone has taught them and that they don't have a choice when it comes to religion. I wish no ill will towards you and I hope you understand why I felt the need to express myself on this subject matter. Nor do I expect you to fully understand why I feel the way I do as I do not fully understand why you believe in what you do. That is why communication, especially when disagreeing, is so vital in the understanding of each other.