In the space between moments
Ah, Maverick Wolf, it can be a horrid thing to know that you've caused someone so much pain. I have been there and I know that it can tear you apart just as much as it tears them apart. The fact is that its over and done with and now you both have to deal with it. Try to reach out to this person, to let them know that you still care, for obviously you do. It is true that things probably will never be the same, but that does not mean that the pain must continue to plague you and the other person. Time will help the both of you heal. Do know that you cannot do it alone though. That "crystalline snowflake" will not repair itself unless it first learns to live again. You can only help the person once they have taken the first step alone. Just as that person cannot help you until you take the first step alone also. You will find life in this seeming death, for what is death but the beginning of a new existance? I wish the both of you the best in life and hope things get better soon.
~*Like a lion, without fear of the howling pack,
Like a gust of wind, ne'er trapped in a snare,
Like a lotus blossom, ne'er sprinkled by water,
Let me, like a unicorn, in solitude roam.*~ Hymn Of Buddha