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The Guilt of a Soul Killer
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Maverick Wolf Member
since 1999-11-13
Posts 94Scandia, MN |
How do I stop the guilt? How do I stop the pain? To think that I have killed, that I have broken a soul. How can I go on living, with a sign that beckons me every day? How do I cope with a sign that is a constant reminder of the spirit that I broke? How can I repair that crystalline snowflake of a persona that I destroyed? How do I cope with the reality that things will never be the same? What can I do in this seemingly hopeless time? How can I find life in death? |
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Alwye
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since 1999-06-16
Posts 3850In the space between moments |
Ah, Maverick Wolf, it can be a horrid thing to know that you've caused someone so much pain. I have been there and I know that it can tear you apart just as much as it tears them apart. The fact is that its over and done with and now you both have to deal with it. Try to reach out to this person, to let them know that you still care, for obviously you do. It is true that things probably will never be the same, but that does not mean that the pain must continue to plague you and the other person. Time will help the both of you heal. Do know that you cannot do it alone though. That "crystalline snowflake" will not repair itself unless it first learns to live again. You can only help the person once they have taken the first step alone. Just as that person cannot help you until you take the first step alone also. You will find life in this seeming death, for what is death but the beginning of a new existance? I wish the both of you the best in life and hope things get better soon. *Krista Knutson* ~*Like a lion, without fear of the howling pack, Like a gust of wind, ne'er trapped in a snare, Like a lotus blossom, ne'er sprinkled by water, Let me, like a unicorn, in solitude roam.*~ Hymn Of Buddha |
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Dusk Treader
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since 1999-06-18
Posts 1187St. Paul, MN |
Marverick Wolf, Alwye is wise beyond her years, it would be to your great benefit to give her words great weight. I just would like to reiterate that you must tell this person you care, don't ever think this person knows and you don't have to tell the person. This person is probably having many dark moods and feeling many doubts, try to relieve the doubts so this person has the strength to make the first steps of theirs. I hope things work out well in the end, and I also wish you both the best in life. < !signature--> In flames I shall not be consumed, but reborn. -- Abrahm Simons [This message has been edited by Dusk Treader (edited 01-09-2000).] |
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sweetcollege_girl Senior Member
since 1999-12-03
Posts 872just about where I want to be |
I loved it...simply wonderful! all the questions...will there ever be an answer?? Great poem.  |
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