LoveAngel, I would suggest that you do move this to a different forum like feelings or q and a or something first. You might want to ask a moderator to help you with this. They are all very nice and helpful people. Then I will try to help you with this dilemma. It seems to be quite the conundrum. By the way welcome to Passions.
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